And drinking dust
With eyes of rust
Tonight my tears might stain your wings
So flutter home
cause youre better off alone than with me
So hide your face
And tie your lace
And butterflies across your cheek
Forget how soon
Youll become a fool for words when I speak

Flutter girl
You dont want to know what Ive lived
You dont want to take what I give
And I give ( Read more... )

fuck you.

Sometimes life just seems so meaningless. Like an endless spiral of disappointments and heartbreaks...

but that's just sometimes.

I hope I can start coping better.

So, I know it's been 8 years and they say time heals all wounds ( Read more... )

Today I was sitting at work just thinking about what's going on in my life...and I've decided to not hate the last few months I'm in this town. This town has helped me in so many ways...when I moved here, I changed my life. I was no longer "the pentecostal girl"...I left all (ok, most) of my fears behind. I still fight the guilt every day, but I ( Read more... )

So, I spent the better part of 2 hrs lying in bed crying about something I can't change. And now I'm furious at myself for even allowing me to be this down about it. Maybe I'm just hormonal...nope, I think it could be that I have finally realized that my only living parent doesn't love me, b/c she can't even love herself ( Read more... )

One night lightening struck the oak tree. He saw it next morning. It lay broken in half, and he looked into its trunk as into the mouth of a black tunnel. The trunk was only an empty shell; its heart had rotted away long ago; there was nothing inside-just a thin gray dust that was being dispersed by the whim of the faintest wind. The living ( Read more... )

im excited about my pirate outfit.

He's been gone 7 years now...and I still miss him. <3

so my mother has single handedly convinced me that i'm pretty damn worthless. It's sad when you realize that your mother finds you disgusting. It just breaks my spirit down, and puts me into a funk. I'm automatically an emotional person, I can't help that fact...it's one of my many flaws...but when someone who is supposed to love me ( Read more... )