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She wears her heart on her sleeve...
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Damaged goods
At some point...
one day...
I will quit hating everything about myself.
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As of this week it's been 1 year.
It still feels new...like an open wound. I'm beginning to think I won't get over it. Maybe I'm not supposed to "get over it."
I just wish I could sleep without the nightmares.
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I keep having nightmares.
like every night
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So, apparently my coping skills aren't as fine-tuned as I had imagined. It seems like I can't go a day without thinking about Mammy. Hearing her voice on that home video had such a strong effect on me...I wasn't anticipating that at all. I am on the verge of tears pretty regularly because I still can't imagine life without her in it...
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I want to die...
I have literally thrown up 4X during the night. I can't quit having chills/sweats. I had to cancel going to my training I've rescheduled numerous times so I'm one step further away from a pay increase/worker III. I'm miserable and my tummy hurts. :(
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I'm surrounded by decay...
I believe death would be sweeter...
End this.