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i am so sad. this is almost unbareable. i get in my car after school and work everyday and just break down and cry. i want this all to be okay.

just know that Paul and I did not break up, I am okay physically as is he (for the most part) I just don't know when we will be together again physically just yet and I wish I could say more but he is still ( Read more... )

I need to talk about something, but legally I cannot until further notice. Just everyone say a prayer tonight for someone very near and dear to me.

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Paul and I celebrate one crazy fucking year tomorrow. Crazy to see how far we've come in a year. It started out as a first date at bw3 for a soda. He got me my favorite flower. Then we went to retzer for a beautiful star lit walk and look out over downtown Waukesha. We went to see 50/50 on sweetest day. We went to Fujiyama for sushi and we would ( Read more... )

I'm a creeper. Oh god. I've been talking to Matty lately. He sent me a text at like 1am asking to call him when i woke up because his power was out and he didn't want to be late to school. So I called him, and hung up when he answered because my fucking mic on my phone is out. I'm going to be a little embarrassed when I see him at school today. ( Read more... )

Remember when I was head over heels for Paul? I'm not sure I feel that anymore. Now that I have him again, I get annoyed with him. The tables have turned and now he is the one saying "I want to see you". I just brush it off like its nothing. I love him. But I'm not sure if I'm over it? Friday I didn't hear from him until 11pm. And I wasn't even mad ( Read more... )

Paul and I are back together and working things out. I'm glad I finally have my other half. For some reason though, my family feels the need to text about it to each other rather than talk to me about it. I changed my relationship status today on facebook and my sister sent my mom a text saying "I could just puke". My mom said something back and my ( Read more... )

My heart is broken. Please excuse me for this hiatus.

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I want school to start. Two more weeks.

I also really can't wait for the day where Paul and I don't have to say "see ya later this week/next week" and we can say "see you after work/school" everyday.

There are two things I am certain about in life right now - going to school is the best thing for me, and my relationship with Paul. He's deactivated ( Read more... )

Went to my gyno yesterday. If this pain persists, I have to go in for a day surgery. I am terrified. What if I have endometriosis? It seems silly since I have already had a child, but what if? Ugh. Kill me please. To top off my lady pains, I strained my back the other day when I slipped on vegetable oil I was cleaning up. Only me...

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