is this it ?
these days i may not be so happy
after all, after all that i have gained 
i still feel sad when i'm all alone 
i may have felt that path? decay? 
i may not be so swift after all 
i guess i've been like this before
these days leave me hopelessly delirious 
i wish these days were gone
oh please end

ahh the 4th of july. was a good day. very chill, which isn't typical for the 4th. but i loved it.
soo in the morning i drove over to an unnamed friends house and picked up a bottle of skyy vodka. i hate hard alcohol, but hey it was all i could get on short notice. 
around 4 i went over to cassie's house because her mom was gonna be gone until real ( Read more... )

i wish i knew what i was doing wrong.

"it's just that people are so fickle
they fall in love at different angles
and really i could lose you
just as quickly as i've gotten you
and that's the kinda thought
that makes me nervous
i'm worried if you'll really think i'm worth it
when the rush wears off
and you're left with this busted person
but if you tell me ( Read more... )

yes, another entry today. but only because it's along the same lines of being content with the way things are ( Read more... )

well, school is pretty much over and summer is here. for once i do actually feel like a different person, but it has nothing to do with another year of school passing and more to do with life experiences. i have no regrets. unfortunately my parents want to kill me right now because i don't have a 3.5 GPA and they are crazy. as of now, my punishment ( Read more... )

i'm in an excellent mood for no good reason. so i'm going to list random things that make me happy.

bare feet on hot pavement, hearing the right song at the right moment, nonspoken understandings & silences that aren't awkward, hot showers, sleeping with lots of blankets, my ripped old jeans i constantly get made fun of for wearing, how time has no ( Read more... )

the lesson of the moth
by don marquis

i was talking to a moth
the other evening
he was trying to break into
an electric light bulb
and fry himself on the wires

why do you fellows pull this stunt 
i asked him
because it is the conventional
thing for months 
or why

if that had been an uncovered candle 
instead of an electric light bulb
you would now be
a small ( Read more... )

"another night ruined by your mom." well put. but it was a good night while it lasted. i can't wait til june 6th when i can drive again. i also can't wait til summer. i will have so much more freedom. plus i'll have a car.
unfortunately i will have no one to hang out with seeing as i'm slowly alienating 100% of the people i care about because of ( Read more... )