i'm never going to be normal again....i feel like i'll never get over this. everything is just way over my head, i don't understand any of it. why why why why why why...............each day i just feel worse.

so my birthday was fun. i got too wasted and ended up sick though, i also said some things to some people that i shouldnt of said....AT ALL. oh well. i'm just hopeing they forget everything i said. but i doubt that'll happen ( Read more... )

first day of work today ( Read more... )

so who changed the lay out to my journal?? someone has my password....well had my password, because i changed it today ( Read more... )

i got kasia's old id that maria used to go to canada taken away from me....because for some reason i just couldnt wait 6 more days to go to canada, so i tried to use her id and i realized i look nothing like kasia. but thursday i'll finally be 19 and i can go to the pub and get wasted. better than sitting around in warren and bein a lil bitch about ( Read more... )

honestly, i can't stop thinking about you. my stomache feels like a cyclone of nonsense. i know this break up is what we need. but goddamn i just wiish we had more of a chance, to maybe straighten things out. but maybe things are too tangled to be straightened out, ya know knots and stuff, those are always hard to untie. eehhh its only been one ( Read more... )

so......its done. we're friends. i knew it was bound to happen....7 months is just too long. i still love him, i still want to be his girlfriend, but right now isn't the right time. yea i'll cry, i'll talk about it non stop, why not? he helped me find things about myself that i never knew. he helped me get through my first year away from home, he ( Read more... )

still going crazy......someone should smack me really hard.

well, lemme start by saying that i've realized how crazy i am. i worry way too much and i think far too often. why do i neeed to get things done so quickly, why am i afraid of surprises. ahhh hell i just really need to chill out ( Read more... )

if i could turn back time doo doo doo ( Read more... )