The oncologist just told me the average life expectency my dad has left. My dad has lived a hard life full of duty and obligation. He has been retired for a number of years and has gotten to enjoy life for a bit. I can't stop crying. All the things I want to do with him still. He didn't get to see me get married. He has helped me name my kids. He ( Read more... )

So yea. I feel like I'm floating. I wish tonight will never end. My heart is just leaping from my chest. More later. I'm having too much fun.

I'm terribly tired right now. I did have an awesome time today. It really lifted my spirits. It was so good. I think I want to get a season pass to next year. Thanks Tiff. It was a good thing you dragged me to it.

The ups and downs of my life are more down than up at the moment. I try to keep myself distracted from the reality of it. I wish things could just be simpler. To some degree I suppose my problems are simple with simple answers. But I think that I'm trying to fight it. I'm trying not to conform to what everyone around me thinks I should act. iunno. ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I had a vivid dream. I imagined I was was in high school. And class for whatever reason revolved around track. And there were limited spots and they were weeding people out early. And for some reason there was this weight lifting thing in the front of the class and I kept fighting with the teacher about random things about ( Read more... )

Let's see. I woke up and went to Nexus. A bunch of movies came out today that I wanted to watch. I talked to random people. Daniela was feeling crappy today. I treated her to some ice cream and she felt better. I later dropped her off at drama practice. She made me a whale out of a Nexus flier. I went back to Nexus and worked on the WoW maze I've ( Read more... )

I guess now that I have photoshop working again, I should probably mess around with some stuff again. I think I want to make a new myspace layout. The one that I've been editting for the past couple days is kinda weak. I may mess around with some flash for part of it. I'm not sure. I found a bunch of things to scan since I've been cleaning my room ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting on my bed with the window open because it was sooo nice out when I threw out the bag of trash I had from going through my old things. The cold made me happy ish. But it makes me think of old things/times. I've been doing lots of thinking. I'm not too thrilled about the status quo that is my life. I may be up for a change of some sort ( Read more... )

This is new to me at least. But yea. You can watch Starwars from a DOS prompt ( Read more... )

I'm trying not to cry I really am Why does it bother me so much after all this time Why does my heart ache Why do I care anything at all for her I thought everything was dead inside My head hurts My eyes can't see I don't want to sleep I want to figure me out I'm so tired of everything I'm having problems focusing my eyes Everything is so blurry I ( Read more... )