Not sure...

[kazeongaku]

Im not sure what i sould do these days.I Cant stand my dad, and i feel like a total conceited bitch. i cant be myself anymore, and im getting too gay. i hate who ive turned into, and i cant stand how im really annoyed with stu because hes stealing the attention, he's being the person i couldnt be for the group. i hate this. i hate that i dontfeel

Comments

[zoew]

You're friends love you and you don't always have to be smiling. It's okay to be sad, as long as you tell people why, so don't go around acting happy if you feel like shit. "Be yourself" I guess. Though I don't really understand what that means. Life has too much pain to bear if there is nothing to be happy about or people who know what you're talking about. (ie family or friends) I don't know if I can help you there, since we have all these differences, but I'm trying to be better. I don't want to apologize for anything I've done to offend, because I'm not sorry. But, maybe I will change just a little to get a little hate out of the world, get back a bit of who I used to be. Have you been this way your whole life? I hate the way people change. Isn't it sad?

[alarivana]

I don't expect you to listen to this, so I'll give advice besides it. I know you've heard this before, probably more than you want to, but act as you feel. It's not worth pretending. Let life be horrible, or wonderful, when it's horrible or wonderful.

Now for some more useful advice. Firstly, you can change and still be yourself. If you hate where you are now, chances are you're on the way to becoming something better. Sadly, such things cannot be hurried. And, remember sometimes you can't help people, because you're the wrong person, or they won't listen. It feels horrible (much like this comment) but it's not your fault.

[belepherdria]

Trying to be a wonderful person only goes so far, and you end up just being screwed up for it. Try not to worry, if you even try to be there for people, that is enough. I can't help people either, so I kinda know what you mean. But listen to Zoe and Becca, I think they're right about dropping masks. /:

[belepherdria]

(p.s. I likes your icon...)

[miss_polyglot]

I repeat what everyone else said, and I'd also like to add something that's going to sound trite but...

So far as your friends are concerned, we love you regardless. If you don't know or aren't happy with who you are, that's okay. Speaking for myself and I think most of the people in your life, we care about you no matter what changes you're going through or how hard it is. We can't always be the people to be there for you and you can't always be the person to be there for us, but from where I'm standing you're trying pretty damn hard to help out your friends. If we don't feel better right away, it's probably not something you're doing wrong, but just where we are in our lives and we appreciate you being there.

Love.

[solanum_nox]

yes! i agree! um, i'm not sure there's anything i could say that would help you, but please understand that we love you!

i was telling you about the nice flowers i've been growing. would you like for me to bring one to school for you tomorrow?

[peacegragon]

hey you! what's your e-mail? i need to send you something.

love.

[kazeongaku]

pigsboogie@yahoo.com