I know we aren't exactly on speaking terms but I have so much I want to say to you. I figured this is the only way I am going to be able to get it all out and all off of my chest. So here I go. I know you probably aren't going to read this and if you do it is going to be in the very distant future ( Read more... )

So here I am again. Alone. I have my friends but no guy. Brandon now has a new girlfriend. Her name is Julie or Julia. I am not okay with him dating someone else. It hurts most of all. I am not sure what this means for him and I. My anti- depressants aren't working anymore. My life seems to be on a downward slide. I am still working at Pac Sun. My ( Read more... )

I hated change a while ago. I couldn't stand it anymore. I needed it. Everyone, well most everyone, recognized that. I was at the point in life where the only way out would be to die. I am so scared. I couldn't take the pressure, the stress, the agruments. I just wanted peace and happiness most of all. I wanted to know that I was okay and life ( Read more... )

Am I a bad person? Can I do anything right for myself or for another person? Does anyone really love you or is love just a front to help you get through the negative and lonely times? Lately I can't answer these questions. Everyone in my life is pulling on me and I am about to break in every directions. As of right now, I want to pick everything up ( Read more... )

From Friday to Sunday, I worked a total of 18 hours. How shitty is that? My next paycheck should be bank! I needed a day off. Thank God for not using me today. I have worked every day since Thursday, today is my first day off since then. It is going to be so nice to watch some TV. I love it I love it. Brandon comes home in five days! I am excited ( Read more... )

Well, a lot has changed since the last time I wrote in here. I don't really remember where to start off but I will just start and hope it catches you up on everything ( Read more... )

I have my sources to find out how certain people react and well just are. So I used one of my sources to find out about a friend, one of my best friends. I am glad to hear the news I heard. I wish they could just understand that I didn't do anything. With time I am sure that it will all be understood.

I have been so busy lately. I just don't have time to keep all the noisy people invovled too. All I really need is my friends and family's right now. I don't need all the drama that goes along with this thing. Well, I finally found the time to update this thing so ( Read more... )

Be upset with me all you want. We are only trying to keep you safe. I actually haven't had anything to do with it but I guess you think I did. Well, I hope some day you understand and forgive all of us even if we weren't involved. You truly are one of my best friends and I don't know what I would do without you. Well, I am sorry and I hope you ( Read more... )

So, someone I am very close with and have been for forever might be leaving me for good. I am really upset that her mom has to be this dumb. I really don't want her to move to NJ. We are practically sisters and she is just going to throw our friendship down the drain because "she can't take it anymore." Whatever that is bullshit. Try, that is all I ( Read more... )