well cant talk long now- but i am leaving manana @ noon for spirit west coast & i come back sunday evening/night... it'll be FUUUUUUUN like always- this is my 4th year- ill be somewhat available on the cellular telephone lol if you need/wanna reach me but i dunno... have a good week- talk to y'all lata-

some people really mean a lot to me & i hate that i can never adequately express that- like my thoughts & feelings never come out right & it bugs me!

"Its hard to fully give my heart to someone else when you have a part of mine- Its also hard for me to not give my heart to anyone else when you don’t have all of mine" well i just made that up- its not a good quote- its just an appropriate quote to my feelings ( Read more... )

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things are A LOT better! like fine now- PHEW! THANK GOD!, really-

another one bites the dust... gosh- i dont even know what to say- i am so humiliated and like devestated- i dont even know what to do- i just lost a really good guy bc i looked hella dumb- mofo!!! i want to like scream or cry or something- i dont know- but hes like never gonna talk to me again- fuuuuuuuuuuuck! to make a long story short, i was w/ ( Read more... )

hmm so today was sooo fun- like mall w/ christina.. then i saw KYLE!!! omg, i looked like crap so i like tried to hide but then i really wanted to see him too plus christina made me talk to him so i did even though it was kinda awkward since we had just been texting lol... then we texted a lot later & i kept bringing up weird subjects to give him ( Read more... )

so kyle picked me up tonight in the nicest car EVER! like ahhh! & hes so sweet- like comes up to the door, opens my car door, just everything possibly gentlemanly w/out being annoying about it- we went to his house 1st & his dad is sooooo nice to me- has been all summer- we talked about new york & trl & then he made me a smoothie (w/ alcohol in it ( Read more... )

*for every light on broadway, there is a horse's ass ( Read more... )

all i can say is i am back- its weird- i was in a whole other world- it was kind of a transition to college- i was mostly independent, adapted to living in other,less than perfect environments,was away from friends & some family- the thing about that is that i feel like they all forgot about me..well, most-there is so much in their lives and just ( Read more... )