so life is busy right now...school starts on monday, although this year, unlike all the other years, feels different. it doesnt feel like school, and i feel like if i blink it will all be over. but, oh, how i want it to be over. i cant wait to go to college and move out and start my own life...im just so excited about it. i start my new job ( Read more... )

i am so fucking pissed off right now...i seriuosly dont think ive been this pissed in a long fucking time. im so sick of bending over backwards to make other people happy and being there for people and not getting any fucking respect, or appreciation, or even someone to fucking go to when i have a problem...im so fucking sick of it, and im not ( Read more... )

love is so misleading....i'll pay 100 bucks to the person who tells me what i really want? cuz i sure as hell dont know anymore

well today is July 19. you never know what life is going to throw at you. almost 2 years since the accident, and it still feels like yesterday. instead of buying gifts, im buying flowers. i've been having problems trying to find my place lately. have you ever felt like you belonged somewhere, and yet you were totally lost at the same time. sounds ( Read more... )

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been a little while since ive made an entry. but no better time than now i suppose. not too much is happening. i really enjoyed spending the last week relaxing with my family at the lake...it was well needed. now i need to focus on getting a job...however i want to wait till my online class is done cuz i really need to finish it. kurtis leaves ( Read more... )

well last night was awesome. sean and i got to spend time together, then i tried to go to sleep but i was just too excited about ashton and my road trip this morning. needless to say, i never slept. i "got up" at 4 am...chugged a monster energy drink, and by 5 we were on our way. we had an awesome time driving up. we were wavin at all the truch ( Read more... )

well finally after a VERY long day i am home. i woke up this morning thinking we'd be leaving before noon. i thought wrong we didnt leave till 5. and theeeeen my grandparents dragged me to dinner. i didnt get into town till 930. but i was so glad to come home. and i spent the rest of my night with sean. we saw nacho libre i think its called...u ( Read more... )

well within minutes after i woke up i was on the jetski with the wind in my hair and the sun on my face. now that's a good way to start your day. i love coming up here, just to get away from it all. during the day its awesome, its night time that i hate. i gotta tell ya too, i've been taking allergy medicine the past couple of days and it has been ( Read more... )

ok so still at the lake and feeling homesick. blah i hate feeling that way. usually the only time i write a good journal entry is when im upset about something. cause then i have a lot to say about it. any other time i get scared about what to write. weird i know. i get scared to tell other people whats in my head. so i guess this is more for me ( Read more... )