had the da off. thats about the only good thing that happened today. i knew what to expect from last night. after getting into a rather extreme fight with my mother i went to bed curled up next to my stuffed duck and cried myself to sleep...actually i got mayeb 2 hours of sleep last night. and i made myself so sick i woke up at 5 in the morning and ( Read more... )

just got home from work. jessica came in today while i was working and showed me this piece of paper with a convo between her and george. in it he was writing how he cant cope with the thought that i wanna marry him and how he didnt want me working so i could go see him, and how he cant be the guy i want. it hurt. i felt something freeze and crack ( Read more... )

just walked through the door. my legs are going " I hate you you evil wretch, gold shall smight you for the havoc you have wrought"...or something like that anyways. lol everything on me hurts 3 8-9 hour shifts in a row suck worse than the suckiest suck that ever sucked and guess what i get to do tomorrow...work as a bagger...for 8 hours. blech. ( Read more... )

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okay today was my day off. let me define "self- concious" to you. self concious is wearing short shorts,having not shaved that morning, having no make-up on with your hair in your face and mud splattered on your sleeve from a pothole; sitting in the back of your brothers truck in 98 degree weather with 3 teenage boys 2 of which you've been intimate ( Read more... )

okay ive been thinking about this whole marriage thing, i guess sometiems there is a point where you'd rather give up everything then go without the person you love...so maybe...maybe i can be with him and..and not have children...ever. and i mean i guess i wont die if i dont get my fairytale wedding, and...and everyone has to bend in relationships ( Read more... )

okay, I just read an email from george. I dont know exactly why im so upset, and it will probably sound silly. But in ym last email I had written half-joking how awesome it would be to get married on 7/7/07 because 7 is my fav number and becuase we always talk of the future and being intimate and even children. but i just had to stare at the screen ( Read more... )

i realized somethign tonight at work. I think it was after a rather chilly conversation with my mother. it kind of felt like i should have had some lightbulb flicker on over my head or i should have shouted "eureka" or something...only it wasnt that kind of revelation. I realized that when somethign gets bad, really bad, when something is said or ( Read more... )

There comes a point where you just love someone. not because they're good or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesnt mean you'll be together forever. It doesnt mean you wont hurt eachother. It just means you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, ( Read more... )

my feet hurt. really bad. just got home from work. (gag me with a spoon) have to be at work tomorrow at 10 which (to me at least) is like ridiculously early. me and heather are builing the flippin sweeetest website like ever! its called stupidosity.com and its brilliant lol. im all excited about it it makes me feel like a dork lol. havnt heard from ( Read more... )