Well... I guess... i just don't know what to say or do.

Gone.  On the road.  I hope for the best for her.

This blows.  i give up.

so, i told myself that i wasn't going to smoke before i went into work again.

i lied.

Why, oh, why do i do the things i do?  i really have tons of reasons not to do something, but it doesn't stop me.

i wonder, should i tell my brothers about the things i've gotten myself involved in?  nah, prolly not... they really wouldn't approve, and that's from their experiences with... stuff.  so yeah... 2 people i can tell and talk to about it ( Read more... )

i need to clean my room... beer bottles and mt. dew cans are piling up.  oh well.

so, i gotta do a bunch of research before i go to class tomorrow, so i think i'm actually gonna go do that now... i mean, i have until 2 tomorrow afternoon, sure... but this kid doesn't like to wake up before 1:30, so waiting until tomorrow would probably not be a ( Read more... )

i'm drowning.

i dunno... nothing goes the way i plan it to... everything in my life likes to get all fucked up, and i don't really know what to do about it... so i'll drink.  i'm gonna go to work tomorrow, and then when i get off work i'm gonna get drunk... smashed, totally oblivious to everything that is going on around me hammered.  yeah, that's ( Read more... )

so yeah... definitely spent another night drinking heavily at the dizzle tonight.... but it's all good... came home with the right girl, of course :)

it's been an interesting night to say the least... but at i've said before... i've got better things to tend to, so i'm gonna do that, right meow.

hehe, night kiddies

ok so i knew i never should have started posting stuff here.... this was stuff i.... well, i say things i shouldn't.

anyways, she read it... and i dunno what to say... i think i've gone and pissed her off heh :(

well... the things i wanted to say... i'm still getting my shit straight.  and she's talking to me, so i can't think of what it is i ( Read more... )

by the way... when i got home i noticed a note on the board from one or some of my roommates... i'm not going to read it.  not tonight.  i don't have the energy to deal with this.

so, totally don't remember writing that last entry... oh well.

my room smells and i have no idea what it is...

she wants to read my posts... it's scary because i know what i've written here, and i don't know how she'll take it.  i'm gonna be honest tho, i don't know what's going to happen in the future.  i don't know where i'm gonna end up.  but ( Read more... )