house hunting is hard.  especially when you haven't a clue what you're doing.  I've been talking to this woman named Lisa who has been trying to help me with questions i have about the whole process.  i've got a LOT to learn.  i'm being impatient, though... i just want to be out on my own and i'm ready to start a life of my own, whatever kind of ( Read more... )

i don't understand what's wrong with me.  i feel so sad and angry ALL the time.  i don't want to do anything anymore and i can't remember the last time i felt genuinely happy.  i know i need to do things to get my mind off of what's bothering me, but everything reminds me of what hurts the most.  i know i need my friends and family, but i just push ( Read more... )

this is just too hard and too frustrating.  i want to be myself again but everytime i try to be happy i find myself thinking of Abi and realize how fake i'm being.  how can i get on with my life when such a huge part of it is gone now? i cry all the time, i never go out anywhere and i barely talk to anyone. my life consists of work and then coming ( Read more... )

today is my last final. aren't you supposed to be excited to graduate? feel a sense of accomplishment? mostly all of my friends graduated or will be graduating with honors. i'm disappointed in myself. i wanted to make my family proud, but most of all, i wanted to feel proud of myself. this semester has been one of the better ones. i truly feel like ( Read more... )

for everyone, bills are a pain. but once they're paid, you feel so good afterwards.. at least i do. i just paid my car insurance for the year. sure, my bank account is almost empty now, but it only took me 2 months to save, and 2 months really isn't a long time. i feel a sense of accomplishment. not just in paying my bills of course, but this ( Read more... )

not that she read this.. i hope. but yah. happy birthday ( Read more... )

a lot has happened since i've last updated. i'm sure ill be updating again very soon once school starts to comment on my professors and classes ( Read more... )

so last year at this time i was crying about getting all C's and so far thats what i have now, and I could not be happier. i really shouldnt work as many hours next semester. but all i care about is passing ( Read more... )

i moved home on sunday. so far i don't hate it, but let's face it, it's only been 3 days. it's down to the wire now at school and i couldn't be more stressed. it's my own fault for procrastinating fffooorrreevvverrr, but, i do what i can. today i worked 8-9 and just wrote 2 pages of my spanish research paper. someone kill me. why in the hell did ( Read more... )

I have lots to do today before work so I'll try and make this snappy ( Read more... )