the truth is, i can't move forward in any kind of relationship until i learn to love myself for who i am. i need to have confidence in myself and until i do, i won't be happy with anyone. how does someone find themselves? i can't "find myself" here. or at least, I don't think I can. i feel like im stuck in a rut. same thing everyday. school, work ( Read more... )

confidence is one of those things where you either have it, or you don't. i'm not necessarily talking about thinking that you're attractive or whatever, i'm talking about having enough confidence to believe in yourself and loving yourself. everyday, as far back as i can remember, i've always looked at myself and seen straight through. i've realized ( Read more... )

2 days til school starts ( Read more... )

2 days til school starts ( Read more... )

i am so disappointed in myself. i did HORRIBLE this semester. 4 out of 5 classes, I got C's. this has NEVER happened to me before! i don't even know what to do or how to tell my mom and dad, they're going to be so disappointed in me, and i think that's worse than having them be angry ( Read more... )

this is my first entry living in a new place. which by the way, is awesome ( Read more... )

yesterday was nice. i was so full by 4 pm. and im dead to the world right now due to waking up at 3:30 AM to go christmas shopping. and yes, i AM one of those people. :) i got most of my shopping done and managed to get some of my gifts for free (my fave price ( Read more... )

i waited all week for this little break from school and work. i had tests all week and i went online today to look at my grade for abnormal to come to find i'm pulling a D. cool. i've never recieved a D before in my life, and I'm not about to start now. my stupid professor has the nerve to ask me for the obituary and then takes off attendence ( Read more... )

my grampy passed away on sunday, the 14th. the wake is today from 4-8 and i'm not sure how i'll be handling it. i find that when i'm with other people it helps me keep my mind off it, and when i'm alone all i can think about is him and everything i see reminds me of him.. but, i suppose that's how it is for everyone who's lost someone they love ( Read more... )

so i have an apartment. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) i've waited SO long for this to happen that now that it has, it feels surreal. alyssa and i will be living at 402 river street at intervale place in haverhill, ma. it's a two bedroom with an amazing size living room with high ceilings (perfect for a christmas tree =D). i made a ( Read more... )