I feel like I've grown past a lot of my friendships here in Chowchilla. Not that I can't stay friends with my group or anything like that, but just like I've moved on. I've felt this way for over a month now, and I think it's more than just a phase at this point. I've been dedicating more attention to school now than ever, I haven't even thought ( Read more... )

So, my old computer sorta kicked the bucket. I feel like I'm being surrounded with some kind of symbolic purging. All the items that I've had for many years and that I've grown very attached to, as symbols of my unwillingness to let go of certain stagnant comforts, are dying or dead. I've changed friends, changed ideas, changed dreams, changed my ( Read more... )

Really. I can sit in front of this journal at any other time of day and then come up completely blank, but the moment the clock strikes 11 and I know my sorry ass should be in bed, the urge to divulge generally useless information is impossible to ignore ( Read more... )

Actually, fuck it. I'm actually too pissed to sit here and explain it.

I've come here every now and again trying to write something, but more often than not nothing really comes out. I maybe write a paragraph or two and then decide it's nothing worth sharing and do something else with my time. Very blah. Still blah today ( Read more... )

I finished theory today, the next four days of class will be all dictation and a pinch of English. Easy peasy. Hopefully will pass the 60 take, we shall see. :3 ( Read more... )

I can already tell I won't be able to sleep tonight. My brain is doing cartwheels. It shows no signs of fatigue.

I'll be honest, I'm not entirely sure how it happened, but I have risen to a leadership role with uncharacteristic smoothness. It seems ironic to me... I couldn't control my own life but now I'm controlling (in some part) quite a few others'. I'm skipping a bit far ahead ( Read more... )

I discovered that the writer who inspired Bioshock, the sort of "original Andrew Ryan" if you will, was a woman.

I don't know why I just figured that Ayn Rand was some foreign male name. I picture a philosopher as a man, and for some time in the past it saddened me that I could think of so few female philosophers.

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"I am Andrew Ryan, and I ( Read more... )

I had a good day on Thursday, and I KNEW that meant the rest of my week was gonna be ass. WITHOUT FAIL, if I actively acknowledge that I'm having a good day/time/week, doom follows proportional to the amount of time I spent content. If I have a good week, the next two weeks will be shitty. If I have a good day, the next two days (minimum) will be ( Read more... )