So i've finally graduated, slept well for a week with absolutely no assignments, no work the next day, nothing to do with getting a piece of cert anymore. Its the aimlessness i craved for so much, and i believe i've rested enough even to the point of idleness and (coming close to the stage of wasting away again) slacking. The hype of graduation has ( Read more... )

i get pissed with God so many times ( Read more... )

why cant i hold on to my faith
without talking about it?

Today was extraordinary. extraordinary. extraordinary.

i am very very lost for words.

today God was so damn real. my words are fumbly and very not nice to read. this post is just an awkward mess.

its 2am on a monday morning and it feels like sunday has just started. it feels like worship never ended. it feels like God is still challenging me now ( Read more... )

Here's a simple logic:

People are unlovable not because they are hard to love, but because they don't want to be loved.

I will go out and love people who want to be loved.

Even Jesus cannot love me if i don't let him. (u can even go deeper as to say Jesus will still love us but we won't receive any from him because we don't want to be loved.)

now im ( Read more... )

This is the way my heart and heart understands in the best way i can put it, once again. Because earthly wisdom is of no value to God's kingdom,

"I don't care anymore".

:D

A friend of mine once said that the Christian walk is like being a broken puppet, and as we grow, we get more and more broken but at the same time God's threads of grace increase and increase, only to just hold the ever crumbling pieces together. its messy, its ugly. But we're still one. Barely intact? Maybe not...

By now i should have posted about 4-5 times from the last time i had. Its been too long because i had so many things i wanted to post about. Some i've refrained from simply for not seeking affirmation/ building of my pride, and some because i wanted to numb myself to them and not confront them... regardless of the state of my soul, God has been ( Read more... )

Only surrender and repentance brings us completely back to the core.

Unhealthy relationships breed contempt... An unhealthy relationship with God is nothing less than sinful, and i'm finally brought to the place of repentance today.For this season, i'm going to start it the same way as when i entered trackers, not once, but twice.  For both times it starts off this way ( Read more... )