i really have nothing to write, today was my lazy sunday.

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kelsey

yeah im sorry for all my terrible posts.

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kelsey

my life seems like a secret life. no one knows anything thats going on with my life. i just dont tell people anything anymore. it seems quite pointless in the end. when i die they'll know. really it seems like my death would be the only thing that would bring people to even notice me anymore. people just want me out of their lives it seems. ( Read more... )

the more and more i think about it. i just wish i had someone to confide in.. i just want someone to hold me while i cry. someone who is there for me at all times. i just wish i felt safe and knew i was alright. i wish i didnt think about dying every living moment. my life isnt meant to be spent waiting for death. i just wish i had just someone, ( Read more... )

Name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head ( Read more... )

all of my favorite artists haved died at early ages, im thinking that im going to be gone at an early age. i just can feel it. sometimes i just think about it and would rather be gone before it gets any worse. i dont want to watch myself disappear deeper and deeper into nothingness. i want to be someone and actually have some brillance left in me ( Read more... )

you know whats not awesome? feeling like you're just existing, nothing more nothing less. you're not even really living at this point. you're not there. no one notices you. nothing matters. you dont feel anything.

this is how i feel sadly. this is how it is at this point in my life.

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kelsey

sometimes i enjoy having a journal no one reads. its nice.

today was a total waste. went to winnipeg, ah i just shouldnt of went.

now i fear im going to be hanging out with myself more and more.

i honestly want to pack my bag and run away. its in my mind all the time.

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pointless entry.

im going to go listen to music.

adios,
kelsey

gotta go and give some blood in awhile so they can run some tests on it.. sometimes i hope that they do find something wrong. its easier to explain something like that over depression, well to me anyways ( Read more... )

i was doing ok until you.

seriously i dont know whats happening anymore.. ive screwed up my life once again.

im an idiot.

adios,
kelsey