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Older post...
I am thinking that I am going to "unprivate" a lot of poems I wrote a few years ago. I am tired of holding onto that. Some of the poetry was about certain people. Some of it is just about a fantasy that I wrote just to get the thoughts out of my mind. So please do not assume anything about any of the older post or for that matter any post.
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Depression
It is a silent disease but when u have suffered from it u know the signs to look for. I am sitting in my psychiatrist office and there is a woman sitting across from me and she looks depressed but if u take a moment and really look at her u can tell it so much more than simple depression. She looks like she has lost all hope of anything going right ( Read more... ) -
i miss...
This will be my second night in a row staying away from home and i am seriously getting home sick. I want to be back in my bed with Daisy curled up at my side. I miss everything that makes home great (I am referring to my roommates) As much as I love being over at my friends house crashing I just miss home. -
My foot
This post finds me laying flat on my back with my foot propped up in the air. I have a giant black walking cast on it. I am starting to debate if the risk of the cortisone shot is worth not having to wear this damn thing. I have to take it off to drive as it is my right Achilles tendon that I have messed up. I am also hoping that I get my taxes ( Read more... ) -
Blahness
I don't know where to start; the last few days I have felt like I am on autopilot. I have been in a funk of sorts. Well after a nice long discussion with my personal angel (of sorts) I have found a possible trigger. And of course it all leads back to my childhood that I can't remember. And then I just got a message from someone from my past. It's ( Read more... ) -
Saturday
Here it is the day I am supposed to go back to work after being off for a long time. I get up in time. I take the dog out get my lunch put together and then the anxiety hits me like a Mack truck. I am going back on the busiest day of the week. And as my therapist said my emotional batteries are still drained despite the best efforts of all of those ( Read more... ) -
Boredom
It is becoming apparent that i am able to get into my blah boredom no matter what; i am over at Carla's hanging out with the girls and i am just blah. Tried sketching and now i am on the computer still bored as a board. Hopefully some salad will bring me out of my dulldrums.... -
Waking up
Just got woken up when my alarm clock woke up the doggy in which she immediately decided she was up and needed to go out which woke me all the way up. I didn't sleep to well last night I was cold most of the night. But I am looking forward to a day at home (or maybe Carla's) where I can just relax. Tomorrow is my first full day back at work in over ( Read more... ) -
From Lightness to Darkness
I am surrounded by people who love me. But yet here I sit alone in my room and I am being enveloped by depression yet again. And I have no clue as to why I am depressed tonight. I was having a great day I got off from work early and then spent a few hours with my girls then I came home and had a relaxing evening with my boys. And now when it is ( Read more... ) -
Unexpressed Gratitude
I feel like there is so much for me to be thankful in this life. And I don't know how to express it properly. I have told the most important people in my life how grateful I am. But I some how have the feeling that I am leaving something out or I am leaving someone out. So if u read this post I am grateful that u have taken the time to read my ( Read more... )