So, there's this guy who is really really sweet & he likes me. But I dont really want a boyfriend right now & it sucks. He is such a great guy & I can tell he would be a really awsome boyfriend. Why do I have to be so difficult? Why is it when I am totally into someone, they're not. But when someone is into me, I'm not?! Uhhhh soooo cofusing & hard ( Read more... )

So lately I have been depressed & it sucks. I really hate feeling like this. I think what makes me even more upset is the fact I cant just make it go away in a snap. I have to deal with it & I really think it is bringing me down this time. I have days where I dont even want to get out of bed, more less talk to anyone. I just sit & cry, & I'm so ( Read more... )

I just now realize how hard it is to sum yourself up in a little paragraph. I felt as though I needed to write in here. I was trying to redo my information dealing with who I am. & for some odd reason, it was hard. Not hard like thinking of stuff to say but try to cram who you are, what you like, what you dont like, & who you basically hang out ( Read more... )

Since Kelly told me to post I guess I will. Lets see where to start. Well I'm still single haha no surprise there, I was actually talking to a few guys. We'll start with Eric. He lasted about, a guess, a month. He was actually the one not ready for a relationship & well I was. He was to involved in skateboarding (which was fine). I would say that ( Read more... )

Yea I really dont care about my journal anymore. If I have something on my mind, I usually write it down on paper now only cause I write late at night & I cant get on the computer late at night cause my sister sleeps in the living room. I also write in myspace at times when I'm bored & feel like letting everyone into my life. But yea I guess I will ( Read more... )

I cant help it but to care. To see someone so great go down because of something that is replaceable by someone who is even greater. This feeling that I have right now is the worst feeling ever get from a friend. I have always been there for my friends, & I'm for one who would NEVER create pain for a friend. I'm not the friend who tells there other ( Read more... )

So I have been sleeping for the past like 3 days nonstop. I have no energy what so ever. It sucks. I had to go and get blood work today they took soooo much blood. Besides sleeping I havent been doing anything. I want a boyfriend. Or a want to meet a guy who is cool & wants to chill & cuddle. But yea this was pointless. I'm out.

Gah I never update anymore. I dont know I just dont feel like I have anything on my mind. I have tho written entries on paper & I was going to type them in later on but everytime I go to get them to type them in here I read them, & I just dont think that there worth putting in. Yea & the whole point I have this journal is to express myself & I mean ( Read more... )

My body is so numb right now, its hard to type. To feel what I felt tonight sucked it was the worst feeling ever. To love something so greatly & not be able to actually do it, sucks so bad. Tonight we had the WSFC tournment & we came in 4th. What the hell Glenn has never never placed 4th. First they played North (I didnt make it to that game) & we ( Read more... )