why do i always do this to myself? i always question myself out of my happiness and i always wonder why i get picked for something special. i always wonder whether or not what someone tells me is the truth. i know that i need to trust him with all my heart and im trying to trust him with all my heart but i question how commited i am. i know that i ( Read more... )

wow has it been a bad day... i can even fathom how much today could have been better... I did get my business paper turned in so that is 1 more thing off my mind but i got lots more to think about ( Read more... )

so its been an interesting day ( Read more... )

so i decided that i didnt like what my journal looked like i kinda switched it around ( Read more... )

my world in the past week has completly changed ( Read more... )

everything these past weeks has been hell i cant even handle it anymore... everything that i have been doing is catching up with me... i wanna just curl up in my bed and cry my eyes out. i honestly dont know what i wanna do. i honestly feel like everything that i have been doing has been in vain.. i've been trying to balance everything out and it ( Read more... )

wow holy shit its been a while since i updated...... a lot has been goin on recently.... im getting better at my spelling.. somewhat but hey as long as im trying right? of course well... its homecoming weekend and i get to go home.. which im so excited about!!! i get to see some people i really havent seen a freakin long time... i miss my NW people ( Read more... )

wow has life ever been interesting ive been at cuaa for almost 2 weeks and i do love it here and im glad i chose here. i cant imagine goin anywhere else. there are a few girls on the team that im getting tight with ( Read more... )

so i moved in yesterday and i was really nervous. but its cool cause i met the girls on the team and their all really nice. so i really dont feel like an outsider. but anyway today we had practice. i mean it wasnt all bad its just that i wasnt used to the running and i was kinda iffy on how i would do. but everyone was really nice. so now i'm kinda ( Read more... )

6 days till i move in. im really scared.... what am i gonna do?? i have no idea how im gonna be able to handle this. its my first time being and living on my own... my room mate wont be there for a few weeks. im really scared and i wont be busy all day so what will i do, i'm soo scared!!!! im gonna cry i'm so nervous about meeting people.. am i ( Read more... )