Thank you for putting up with my funk that I am in at the moment. I am trying to get out of it but it is hard to do when... Never mind, that would just lead to a lot more bitching and moaning on my part. Anyways, thanks.

EVERYTHING, I work in a crap job that I am not liking more and more every day. I have no life. I have nothing. Sorry, I am very weepy today. I am turning 33 in 10 days and my life has really gone nowhere. And trust me it isn't from a lack of trying. I try damn hard and everything just never goes my way. I do look on the bright side of things when ( Read more... )

My mind just wont shutoff. For the last two days it hasn't stopped. I keep thinking about whats wrong with me. I can list them here but it would take a while and somethings that might be on the list I'm not sure of. There has to be more wrong with me than having a penis. I am a good person that tries and does more than needed to when it comes to ( Read more... )

why should I tell anyone how I feel anymore? I just wind up being rejected and feeling like shit. So like I told another friend of mine I am done. I'll just work and do what I do day in and out and wait for the world to blow up. *sigh* If you couldn't guess she said no when I asked, I didn't think it would bether me this much if she said no. But it ( Read more... )

This whole celabicy thing sucks. I have only taken "care of things" once in the last 15 days. Which isn't bad considering what I have been known to do. Don't ask, LOL. But been trying to keep busy with other things so I'll let you all know how things go on from here. HUGS

Last night I took Marylynn (roommate/best friend) to go see BackStreet Boys at Mohcan Sun For her or one of her birthday gifts. Now I have never been one for boy bands, mainly cause I loved metal and rock and the boy bands were like the antichrist. LOL But I must say after last night they have one more fan. It was a fun time, they put on a really ( Read more... )

I am so done with love and romanace because apparently it is done with me. I can't get a date or laid so I give up. No one else wants me so I'll be cellibate. And I am not going to even "take care Of" myself. No one else wants to why should I want to do the job. I know I haven't posted in forever but here I can speak freely with out ceratin people ( Read more... )

I am feeling so down right now. I feel alone and am having a lot of self esteem issues. For the first time in a while I just want to cry myself to sleep. WHy do I need the acceptance and why does it seem that I need to be in a relationship? All I can do is try but sometime it is so hard. Anyways I am going to call the one person that never judges ( Read more... )

There's a lot going on in my head right now and once I have time I will probably write about it all. I just don't want to do it now because I have to work today and I will just be thinking about stuff more.

How am I supposed to get over the best thing to ever happen to me? I have never loved anyone as deeply and as passionately. I had planned my future around her and her children. Shouldn't I care or wonder where and how she is? I can't hide this hurt inside my broken heart and I truely feel that I am trying to fight back emotions that I've never ( Read more... )