i'm sick of boys, i really am. i just want to be with my best friends, in a beautiful place, listening to beautiful music, and be able to laugh and have fun without looking at boys as anything more than my friends. i want to be able to just live in the moment and enjoy it. i'm tired of feeling as if every decision i make is some monumental, life- ( Read more... )

i dont understand why you had to come into my life. totally unnecessary. and now i have to wake up every day feeling disappointed because i realized too late how incredible you are.

thanks.

I've been studying the average temperatures for around this time and apparently its supposed to be mid to high 30's, which is really not that bad. AND THIS IS IN BOSTON. So why, dear friends, is it averaging mid 20's? Why must I be made to suffer through this? why? why????????????????????

its strange how feelings can change so much. im looking at that thing i wrote on my profile a year ago, thinking it would only apply then, and now it's come back, and when i really, really didn't expect it to. although then again, it could be that thing again where i just want what i cant have. i have a really serious, horrible case of that. ( Read more... )

i either dont have a crush on him, or ive been suppressing one for 4 years ( Read more... )

wait. i cant deny it. its WINTER time. get it? did i trick myself into thinking this? it sort of feels that way, but a lot of stuff happens to make me think thats not true. which makes it even more aggravating. and then sometimes its like, maybe? sometimes its like, definitely? sometimes its like, def not... agh!!!! and that part isnt my fault. ( Read more... )

ive accepted it
now get me out of hereeeeeee

i feel nauseated ahahah
yo adelle is so freaking cute

i'm so confused ahahhaha.

I am the type of person who likes to press her bruises even though it makes them hurt more. But I'm getting better at composing myself when presented with this type of situation. Maybe it's because I've already gone through it once before? Or maybe my defense mechanism of rationalization is so strong that I put myself in denial. I'm trying to ( Read more... )