I cant believe this thing still exists! I should be sleeping but instead I just spent a few hours reading all of my old posts. After having read them I have to say, I am a depressing individual...or was...or maybe still am...who knows. Maybe I'll start posting to this thing again...maybe not. Tonight I decided to post an entry because of my ( Read more... )

i really hate resorting to live journal to be able to talk about how i feel and (usually) how upset and/or pissed off i am. It's really a bunch of shit. I hate live journal. I'm in a shitty mood. This week wasn't even that bad. I only had class on Wednesday and today cause on Monday i had no class and Tuesday i decided not to go. Today is just a ( Read more... )

I don't think there has ever been a time where i have been more depressed.  Actually I'm pretty sure there has been one, but as for now i cant think of that time. Tomorrow is my birthday. I'm turning 21, and for some reason i don't want to...not even at all. I have never been alone on my birthday...ever. Even last year. Last year Jim had just left ( Read more... )

i'm in a very confused state.

i was listening to a song and, for the first time ever, realized these lyrics...

"love is watching someone die...
..so who's gonna watch you die?"

...my stomach hurts, and my thoughts are so deep right now that i could drown in them.

This summer has sucked completely so far. I'm actually gonna go ahead and say that so far, its been one of my worst summers ever. I have this ridiculous job that sucks my social life ((and most of the rest of my life)) right out of me. I work ALL THE TIME.

i have no time for friends,
i have about 3 hours a day for a boyfriend.
and 1 hour to eat.

At ( Read more... )

My aunt: "aaah Ahzwaldo is hahngreee, keeehl, you have to feeeed him"

Me: "no, he's fine. I feed him at night so that he doesnt start meowing from hunger and wake me up"

My aunt: "ooh poor Ahzwaaldo"

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approximately 20 minutes later i find my aunt inside my bedroom feeding my cat.

please....Please.....kill me.

All i want is to be left alone right now. no1 gets it though. my house is over populated. Not only do i just have my obnoxious family living with me....but i also have my brothers dirty friend here too, eating all the food, and leaving messes wherever he goes. Not to mention that since my brother kicked him out of his bedroom, he's been living in ( Read more... )

I am becoming really annoyed with all the hype about "summer 2007".
 Its almost making me believe that this summer isn't going to be all that great, and that everyone is totally jinxing it completely. That sounds so absurdly crazy, but it's true. Why does it have to be labeled as "summer 2007". i mean...i know literally it is the summer of the year ( Read more... )

Lately it seems like EVERYONE i know is sooooo tired, including myself. Nobody is getting enough sleep. I guess cause its the end of the semester, and everyone has finals to study for and everything...but seriously, even people i know who arent away at school studying their brains out for their finals..are just complately exhausted. We all ( Read more... )

SO. Its 1:15 in the morning and i cant sleep. My mind is racing so fast,  i cant even distinguish the different thoughts that are going through it right now. Im worried about so many things in regards to school, and school work. And things are all wacky at home. I'm unfortunately in a not so grand mood right now. Its approximately 700 degrees in my ( Read more... )