I really think im going to be sick right now... my stomach is in my throat and my hearts beating really fast. It wont stop. He's been on the phone for the last 45 minutes outside on his deck with a girl. And im upstairs and his room and I know all about it. Dont know who the girl is this time.. but when i walked in today he was on the phone with ( Read more... )

Its been awhile since ive taken the time to actually write in this thing..but i feel like i never have any free time anymore.. i dont know if this is a good way to put it.. but any extra time i have is stale. When im not working or with matt im usually catching up on sleep or trying to keep in touch with my friends. So i never make good use of the ( Read more... )

100 THINGS ( Read more... )

I can finally breath a sigh of relief.

Its over, im quote unquote Free.. no more abuse. I can wake up and not have to guess whether its gonna be a good day or a bad day. All this will ever be is a bad memory.. but in this moment i am happy. I wonder what life will throw at me next...

Shouldnt this be what i want... for me, for him, for anyone and everyone effected by the things like i have been.. shoudlnt it be ( Read more... )

Work is going swell.. im not hating it yet. Love the Girls that i work with they are so great.. sad today cause Its Jeanettes last day and she goes back to Boston.. lucky bitch ( Read more... )

APPEARANCE ( Read more... )

Man oh man ( Read more... )

1) When was the last time you went to the bathroom outside?: some party in Otis ( Read more... )

I dont really know why i bother to write in this here livejournal.. its pretty ridiculous. Why do i feel the need to share me pointless rambles and complaints with people? It does absolutely no good.. yet it gives me this satisfaction of having writtin whats on my mind... but why so everyone else can see?.. PERHAPS i should start writing it in a ( Read more... )