baseball players

[kellyroo]

i went to work today for the first time in almost 3 weeks. at first it was rather awkward and weird but that soon passed. it was great seeing christina again though. i found out that i could have gone to our golf tournament which would have been cool b/c a lot of the players were there. and i could have met john mayer. but oh well.. most of the

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[ml3602]

I can imagine how awkward it must have been to go back there. I admire your strength! *hugs

[kellyroo]

Thanks. Yeah.. I do know all of this. But that is where the conflict takes place.. my head tells myself this when all of it happens yet my heart still feels left out. My head knows that we're just different kinds of people with different interests and personalities and that we can't be friends with everyone, yet my heart sees that i'm not being talked to or looked at etc and then I end up feeling sad. Sometimes I just have a hard time letting my mind be in control rather than my heart. But if there is anything I have learned more in these last few months is that I have to let my head guide the way and listen to it more often. I just have to be smarter about things and not let my emotions get the best of me.

And you never ever babble. Your words/advice are always right on. You're one of the smartest people I know. I look up to your wisdom :)

[ml3602]

It is hard when you have your head and your heart battling it out. The problem with following your heart is how you risk pain. The problem with following your head is how you risk missing out on something special. It's just hard to find a balance between the two. You need your mind to stay at least somewhat logical, but then you need your heart to stay compassionate of those around you. I think we all end up finding a balance eventually. Just takes time and patience.

Aww, thanks, hun. You have this habit of making me teary eyed. :)