I am thinking of going to so cal and picking up my car REAL soon. i can't live in the city in such a way where I have no other options in this shitty rain. I really REALLY hate cold rain. I hate nasty CITY rain A LOT. I am so damn sick of being around people who have only suffered harsher climates and think that it is "SO AMAZING" weatherwise in SF ( Read more... )

I'm a total sap after dating Dayman. At times I just think I would do anything to be wanted by him, and find myself feeling pathetic. Imade a pact with my friend Kristia that I would stop thinkign of him so much. I just feel that it's good to do what it takes to get over something that is negative. However, love is so hard to deal with when the ( Read more... )

You scored as Anarchism. <'Imunimaginative's Deviantart Page'>

Socialist
83%
Anarchism
83%
Communism
75%
Democrat
67%
Green
67%
Fascism
42%
Nazi
25%
Republican
25%
What Political Party Do Your Beliefs Put You In?
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I am so damn annoyed at myself. im a bad girlfriend, a social flake, a procrastinting, slacker with major need to organize my tme schedulre, not to mention my personality and mind frame.. mainly I AM SO DAMN RETARDED ( Read more... )

hehe.. HELLO THERE MY DARLING FRIENDS WHO (HOPEFULLY STILL) EXIST ( Read more... )

It's strange how I say I don't like to go out, leave parties early when it is anything to do with the b/f and then now that I am not sure if I even have a boyfriend, things just seem THE COMPLETE opposite. I went out and had a blast at this concert. I mean I feel bad, as I feel I should be finding ways to get him back, but I kind of am not desiring ( Read more... )

YUP, that's right I am alive. I feel as if a million years have passed since I wrote here. I rarely write here anymore. I don't know, maybe it is because most things I have to write are HARD to write. I want to be with you know who, I still like him, and things are STILL confusing, now more so it is my fault. I am kind of sick of how things have ( Read more... )

why the hell am I so adamantly against him leaving? haha.. who knows
I guess because I want to leave!! I want to go FAAAAAAAAAAAAR from here. far from this retarded relationship, this cold weather, and fuck did I forget to turn in my papers or what?? so I finally decided to mail them.

I've realized why I am so utterly sad that shea is leaving. It's not that he is leaving, it is that I can't see him before he leaves. Ever since N's death, all I think is that if I don't see someone when I should there might be a chance I won't EVER see them again. Life is so strange the ones who would not be missed live long lives and those that ( Read more... )