I have a massive headache, and heartache. That's pretty much all there is to say. I just want to wallow in this, and I don't usually do that so I think it's okay. I'm always so damn optimistic. I want to be fucking sad for once.

Today at the bank, when the lady asked for my social security number, I gave her my Dallas phone #. Talk about embaressing.

I have had a busy day today. But I think I got all eight things on my to-do list done. That's right- eight. So you may ask, how does having to do eight things call for the need of a to-do list? Well in my oh-so-uneventful life, those eight things seemed mighty daunting at 11:00 last night. I did them all though, all except babysitting, which starts ( Read more... )

I feel like a total insomniac right now. I'm exhausted but I just can't fall asleep, so I took two Tylenol pm's and I'm updating lj. My mom's friend took us to get manicures and pedicures and out to a really nice dinner tonight. We're going to Hawaii with her this summer too. She is so generous and loves to spoil us. I was sad though, so although ( Read more... )

I had a nice lunch with my dad and sisters today. It's weird, because now that's my whole family. My mom is present, but not physically. Katie and are going to go to Rome for school next semester (hopefully) and then Annie and my Dad are coming to Europe and we're staying there for Christmas. I think that will be good. I'm going to go to TX for a ( Read more... )

Tired, but I've got to stay up for at least 45 more minutes... better not take longer then that or someone's getting the smack down!!! Well no, but whatever. Today kind of sucked. Shopping is just not fun when it's for your mom's funeral. I had home made sushi at Rob's though, which was good. His mom is SO sweet. I love her a bunch. Anyways, I met ( Read more... )

Sometimes events happen in your life that effect you in a way very few people will ever understand. I will never be the same, and I will continue growing and learning from this. I am in awe of life, of God, of my Mom, my Dad, both my sisters, my Mom's friends... the list could go on forever. How do make sense of something so intense? How do you ( Read more... )

It may be denial, but I'm doing pretty well right now. My mom is surely slipping away before my eyes and I realize I will never have a normal conversation with her again, but it's hard to wrap my mind around it. Today we had a meeting with all my moms close friends about the funeral and it was wonderful and sad. We all prayed beforehand and it made ( Read more... )

If you pray, please pray for my family now. we need it more then ever. Thank you.

Yesterday night I went to ice cream with Monica and Emilie. It was really fun. Then we went to Wallgreens and bought a lot of stuff we never knew we needed. Like hair dye and vitamins. Then Em, Christine and I had a sleep over. It was tremendous. Today I had a long day, but got to stuff envelopes for two hours with Joe, which I enjoyed. The Joe ( Read more... )