Comments | kenduane: Me blathering about shit because I'm talkative.

kenduane

Me blathering about shit because I'm talkative.

Jan 24, 2006 03:05

I'm in a very introspective mood right now, which I'm often in, but not when I'm at the keyboard of my computer. So I feel like I should perhaps post ( Read more... )

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a long-ass response to your long-ass post, part 1 sleazeanna January 24 2006, 18:08:04 UTC

"I constantly try to analyze why I do everything I do. The prime motivator for me is to do what is good; but when I'm clearly not hurting anyone, my prime motivation seems to be to have fun sharing things with people ( ... )

Your icon looks like a poop-man. kenduane January 24 2006, 21:21:26 UTC

Also, I am not unhappy, but it seems that ignorance is bliss for many around me. Sometimes I think I am too conscious of social injustices happening all around me, too critical of idiots (like stupid people at the bar, when I am driving, or at work) when I am out, and perhaps too sick of politics to really let myself be truly happy.
I'm like that guy who is watching a bad movie, bitching about all of the stupid lines, acting, etc., but not doing anything constructive about it like looking for value or changing the channel. That is only sometimes, I don't always feel that way, but it is distracting.

Re: Your icon looks like a poop-man. sleazeanna January 24 2006, 22:18:46 UTC

My icon does NOT look like a poop man. I've never seen a rectangular turd.

He's a pop tart, you ass. Frosted brown sugar cinnamon.

long-ass response, part 2 sleazeanna January 24 2006, 18:09:08 UTC

wow, its pretty bad when my response is too long for one response ( ... )

Yes, but... kenduane January 24 2006, 21:11:32 UTC

I think you are confusing a lot of my questioning as doubting self worth. I think I was more trying to get people to ponder those questions and wonder with me. I am excited about the future, and I'm not depressed or down on myself, it just isn't often that I don't have a path set out before me. I like to force myself to wonder why I am where I am and where I am going, because otherwise, I'll be at the same place when I'm thirty.
I don't feel bad. Just stationary.
Besides, I have a lot of possibilities, which is better than being stationary on a road with no forks. I just need to get moving again, and I wonder how much of that will be my will and how much will be fate.

Re: Yes, but... sleazeanna January 24 2006, 22:21:56 UTC

Well good, I'm glad you don't feel bad. Just a few of your statements seemed like you were doubting yourself (like "does that make me less worthy of a person"), and I was like, twat is this?

So really this is all about wonder. And wondering. I'm gonna start calling you wonder boy.

Let's go to the bar.

blacktron_pimp January 24 2006, 21:06:27 UTC

there was more honesty and self-analysis in that one post than i think exists in my entire journal. i dont have any answers or suggestions, but with this much in depth thought i dont think you need them. you'll figure it out.
wait, i do have a suggestion. dont watch tv, ever. that saves lots of time.
also: party is saturday february 25. be there or be ^2.

klynnfrost January 25 2006, 16:55:43 UTC

You just reminded me of when we were nearing high school graduation and said that you either wanted to be a high school english teacher or a politician, but probably a english teacher because you couldn't stand the bullshit of politics although you are supreme at the art of argueing. I know we all say something to the effect of how we want our future to be when we are in highschool and that idea is not always accurate once we have the tools to justify the means. But I wonder if that statement still holds true for you sometimes. I figure not most of the time because you aren't a teacher or politician. But I figure so sometimes because ultimatley, I feel you'll also tire of the bullshit involved in waiting tables. Because in the end, you'll always be able to go to the bar with good people, but you don't have to be a server for that ( ... )

Thanks bungus. kenduane January 25 2006, 19:57:15 UTC

There is value in what you say, but perhaps some things that I could clarify ( ... )

Re: Thanks bungus. klynnfrost January 25 2006, 21:10:52 UTC

That's not what I meant. What I meant was: I know you are happy. I don't think you'd be happier as a politician or educator. Hmm, I have to think more. But I don't think you are upset or depressed. I don't think you really get depressed anyway.

Re: Thanks bungus. klynnfrost January 25 2006, 21:11:16 UTC

at least, not in the sense that most people associate with depression.

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