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oh nine.
jeez, how long has it been since i blogged? lets do an update.
first off, happy new years, happy holidays to everyone. i hope everyone's new years celebration was awesome, because mine wasnt. haha. i think i just made a new world record. i got drunk in the backseat of my best friend's car, and got kicked out of esco's in like a matter of, two hours ( Read more... ) -
baby, we're hangin on a string.
250AM. true, indeed. we're hangin on a string. do we keep on fighting to keep something alive? we're not even on the same page anymore.
its almost christmas evem, christmas, etc. and we're still going at it. are we going at it because we care too much, or because we dont care anymore? i dont want it to be over, but it seems thats the only time i ( Read more... ) -
"this will make or break us, our relationship needs it."
do i hear the bittersweet tune to donnell jones' "where i wanna be" making its way to the repeat setting on my ipod, itunes, cell phone, etc. already? ha, and mary j. blige's "be without you" countering donnell jones' for a sense of false hope. those are breakup words for you. even worse, theres this song i found, its conveniently called 'the ( Read more... ) -
thankful.
so, like most thanksgiving blogs, i must tell you all what i'm thankful for this year. then, i'll tell you the insanity of today. this might be a long blog, so hold tight. ';]
i'm thankful for my family. who could ask for anything better? i know we get into our little fights, but hey, its tough love. i dont admit it much, but i'm pretty fortunate to ( Read more... ) -
distance makes the heart fonder.
tough. being far from the finace is tougher than i expected. i really dont know what to say, trust is the main component. neither side is ever sure of faithfulness. i was never the one to trust a guy. but really, this boy has proven too much for me to start doubting now. i love him, more than he knows. and hopefully its the same with h -
animosity lives on
the animosity i felt a year and a half i ago is still here. call it bitterness because i lost, but all this is so random. im not really sure why im feeling animosity til now, but its there and it still pisses me off that i wasnt the one to break it off. it pisses me off that i didnt just cheat when i couldve, because you were doing it anyway. ugh. -
babysitters club
so im living the babysitters club. i am. this is pretty boring, because my kid doesnt speak much english, but she's cute, so its kinda fun. haha. that didnt make sense at all. so today, i went to fatburger with jazmine and cristina. fun fun fun.
time differences suck. my fiance, joe, always emails me a goood hour or two beofre i actually decide to ( Read more... ) -
tolerance
so, last night, i was drinking beer with my family. i had a couple of heinekens and it hit me, my tolerance for any alcohol his completely gone. i think. well i dont know. i think it was because i was instant messaging my afgahnistan-bound finace while he was in turkistand. i started crying like a baby. haha. im a big baby. i think it was the ( Read more... ) -
everything will be okay.
so last night, i cried like i never ever have in my life. worse than when i found out my "first love" cheated on me. scratch that. he was just my first real boyfriend. my fiance left for afgahnistan last night. so now imagine, my finace left, of course i'm going to be really upset. he really knows how to make me feel better. i dont know how he can ( Read more... ) -
history, forreal.
obama is americas 44th president.
am i glad? of course. i voted for him.
all i have to say there more to him than just a black man. theres more to him tham making hitory and there is more to him then the cool little teeshirts that read "this mama is for obama". his political views are something i agree with. enough said. ill bog more some other