Ashton (my rat) died two hours ago. We're burying him tomorrow.

Just a small note...I'm going to start posting under friends only from now on. I don't like the idea of people I don't know reading about my life and I don't like the idea of people taking things the wrong way so I will just eliminate the problem.

I went to see a doctor today for the first time in a while. I had a pap-smear done (hurt like hell) then she (Paula the midwife) did a basic checkup and a breast exam. She mentioned that my cervix looks pregnant and then said something about one of my nipples needing to be engorged so I could breastfeed properly (Lorraine, is this normal?). I am ( Read more... )

Well, here I am living at Dad's and trying to ignore him and Diann as much as I can. Things really aren't that bad its just frustrating because Justin has no set place to stay and he keeps complaining to me about it. I don't mean to make him sound like a bad person he just gets to me sometimes. His sister keeps trying to tell him to join the Navy ( Read more... )

I wish you could be here ( Read more... )

I would like to inform all of you that my previous post was not entirely serious. I had a weird thought and started writing about it. I realize that it sounds sick and twisted but sometimes we all get these thoughts. Please don't worry about me. I will be okay. I also wanted to say that I don't like people telling my mother that I'm going to kill ( Read more... )

I got real bored one say so I started writing. I couldn't think of what to say so I let my mind wander....All of a sudden I thought of how nice it would fell to slit my wrist and let my lover suck all the blood out of my body. Would someone actually be willing to do this to me? Would the person that I wanted to do it be willing? How much time would ( Read more... )

Bree: did Adam want to go with us today ( Read more... )

I attended a party earlier tonight that consisted of 13 mormon kids, George and myself. I went because George is good friends with one of the girls going. It was quite interesting. The music was okay (mostly 80's stuff that I listen to anyway) and they were basically acting like normal people except for the occasion gay bashing comment like "Oh, ( Read more... )

I can't seem to get myself out of this rut of self-loathing. I really don't like where I am and I can visualize where I want to be but getting myself there requires work. Hard work. We all know that I like to procrastinate until someone kicks my ass so hard that I have no choice but to do what I need to. No one that is with me everyday is willing ( Read more... )