so i got to wondering this morning in the shower, why would a hottie like ricky date me? is it because he wants a peice of ass before he leaves again? I keep telling myself that isn't it. i guess i just feel down on myself today. is he gonna miss me when he leaves? or just not think about me. i mean he will be having his eye worked on! ( Read more... )

I've been so caught up in Myspace i have neglected LJ. sorry LJ ( Read more... )

things are so busy ( Read more... )

I had a dream the other night and i had it again last night. it starts with me being thrown onto a bed and then brandon gets onto the bed. he says something about us being married and then i realize that we are about to have sex with out a condom. very big deal. but we are doing so because we are trying to have kids!!! ugh!

1. she took my best friend away. yes at first it was my fault but we made up and then she came along and made things worse by trying to manipulate everyone and lie to everyone. Also, it's hard to manipulate someone who is very familiar with the game and a whole hell of a lot smarter ( Read more... )

ok it's really hard keeping up with two journals. so this one had posts that my myspace doesn't and viceversa. so if you are an avid reader of "kera: beyond the barricade" you might want to check both journals. did you like that title? i think thats what i'm going to name my book when i write one. so go here www.myspace.com/kerakay and you will ( Read more... )

ok guys. here is a list of who the main people in my life are and what they are to me ( Read more... )

ugh! today i went to church and then came home and went back to church. cept the 2nd time there was food! i ate with the youth. they are the coolest group i've ever been with in my life! i really like hanging out with them. i've got some pics i'm gonna post of the camp we went to and of the dinner tonight. now i'm just sitting at home trying ( Read more... )

got up ( Read more... )

"Did i really love him or was i just addicted to the pain of wanting someone so unattainable?