So I put myself out there again...and again, I get pulled back. I am not upset at all... I just don't like how the situation for a while now seems to go in my favor. Do I have high standards? I mean it doesn't seem possible to aim high if you want something you go and get it. And technically, it wasn't a shoot down. It was more of a on hold but ( Read more... )

So I said I wasn't going to write in here till I had something positive to say. I am now the musical director for the musicals at Lake Worth High School. yay my Alma Mater! The only problem is now that it conflicts with my work schedule so I need to try and stretch some things out. School is finally setting in and now the objective is make more ( Read more... )

I'm sort of floating along right now and it's rather annoying. I need to find a path right now and focus. Nothing is really happening right now so a sense of direction. I've also decided I'm not going to write in here till I have something positive to say.

So reality check: I've come to a couple serious revelations in my life: I am not untouchable, people still will do there best to get to me and time along with life stops for no man. I mean truthfully, I have to make 85% of me is a facade. I wear an incredibly huge mask all the time and I believe that no one can break through it. Life gets at you, ( Read more... )

It's been about a year and a half since I've last written in here but I think I need to write because it would be extremely beneficial to me. I personally feel like I'm at such a low point in my life. I mean school is going fine even though I'm technically not in school. This is so frustrating to have to wait on other people because they don't feel ( Read more... )

Wow its been a super long time since ive updated this journal. Well lets see... I've graduated High School. I begin college in one week and i move in to my dorm on thursday and lets see idk I have a girl who im crazy about so yeah Things are going really good for me right now i think i kinda got my life headin in the right direction so yeah. Im ( Read more... )

hey you guys i feel like i havent updated in forever. but yeah you guys ive been pretty busy. homecoming week senior year. oh you guys i got pathfinder for my school go me!!!!! yay well that just means more work for me to do now so yeah i hope everyone i sstarting off the school year well its almost the end of the first nine weeks. I hope to see ( Read more... )

hey you guys i feel like its time to update. Yeah so i got into a car accident. Yeah that really sucks. I'm going to court tomorroww to straightin this all out. Hopefully nothing bad will come of this. I mean im really a good kind i dont do to many bad things but anyway yeah thats going to be water under the bridge soon hopefully... I have my all- ( Read more... )

i just dont know about much of anything anymore. everything has become so confusing and complex. its just not really fair. its not fair to anyone. i dont want to fight or do some of things i have to do. this court date is kinda buggin me. its so hard to stay on top when everyone expects you to be this perfect person. i dont like it one bit. i dont ( Read more... )

hey you guys its been a while since ive updated. ive been trying to keep a good spin on things. but these days it just doesnt seem any fair to hide it anymore. i mean you have anger in your heart you should get it out somehow. this may hurt someone very dear to me. but you know what it needs to be said. jessi you cut me very deep. it was your fault ( Read more... )