Geez Louise cheese and peas.....it's bad a pretty bad week. It all started out Tuesday, exactly two years since my Grandpa died. And the thought of it makes me cry just as hard as I did when it happened. Then to add to that I lost my bird. And for those of you who know me well and me him, he meant the world to me. He was the only thing that I've ( Read more... )

Last night was THE worst night of my life. I don't even want to write about it, but I truly hope things will get better. We can't go on hurting each other like this, baby please, it takes two to make love last....I've been here for you even when you were horrible to me, and I'm not saying I haven't been horrible to you. I would never go through all ( Read more... )

Alot has happened lately. Brandon and I have moved back from Gainesville and things have been really tense. I really hope that we can work through what's thrown at us and just try to be us again. I hate crying at night wanting to hold him, but I can't roll over and have him next to me anymore. I miss my best friend. I miss the one that I've ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do. I'm trying so hard to not argue and we still do. I love Brandon more than anything. He's my world my everything. I can't live without him. I would do NOTHING to hurt him. I've been nothing but loyal. I would do nothing to hurt us. Brandon I love you so much, please believe me please...

Okay, hopefully this journal will be a little happier....Let's see, I think the biggest things that's happened in the past week is my car breaking down on I-75..yay..lol. In a way it was good. I know that sounds odd, but it was. It gave Brandon and I time to just sit and talk, even if it was outside of a Texaco gas station for a couple of hours lol ( Read more... )

Well I haven't written in here in a while due to school and work. Lots of stuff has happened...some for the good some for the bad, I just don't feel like talking about them anymore. I fell dead...I'm like a robot, I never think about anything anymore, I used to think nonstop, I use to write poems and write in an actual journal, but I just can't ( Read more... )

I wish things could get better. I try and try but I get no where. Things aren't like they use to be. He gets so angry at me so easily. It's like everything gets taken out on me. Like all of his anger and frustration are directed towards me. He doesn't care when I cry or when he hurts me. It's like nothing is the same. He never tells me I'm ( Read more... )

I haven't written in here in a while and I need to. I moved to Gainesville finally, and it's great, on my own, living with Brandon, etc. But I just don't know what to do anymore. I just feel alone in this, I feel like Brandon's pushing me away. I'm trying to be the best I can be for him, I do as much as I can but it doesn't seem like it's enough. I ( Read more... )

I have mixed emotions at this current time. I'm not sure which ones to talk about. Brandon speaks of me in his journal like I'm an annoyance but whatever. I haven't written in a while.... due to shit. I got $1700 dollars in scholarship money from marchman so there's some good news. Amanda's down so I hope I get to see her. I really miss her. I feel ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I have to do my speech for my senior project. Then I'm done! But see I'm nervous not because I don't know what to say, I just have too much to say. I know so much about my subject (Veterinary Assisting) That I kind of talk over the time limit lol. They won't have a timer like Mrs. Bishop had so this should be interesting. I'm in a weird ( Read more... )