So I woke up today and my wrist was all messed up. I swear someone keeps beating me up in my sleep. First my back gets all messed up so it hurts to do things like stand up and lift things like my own arms. Then my sholder gets all messed up so it hurts to do things like use my right arm and breath too deeply. Now my right wrist is all messed up. ( Read more... )

so I just had one of those days where no matter what your doing or where you are you just cant stop thinking about something. Where nothing quite takes your mind off it and everything reminds you of it. Nothing is quite as fun since your distracted and nothing really seems too terribly interesting. I'd like to say that I have a lot on my mind but ( Read more... )

Stupid nice weather making me feel good for no reason.

Mind you I like feeling good and all its just a bit odd for me to feel good and not be able to explain it.

Like cause without effect.

I should probably just enjoy it.

lets see ( Read more... )

Damn I need to get out of Keene for a day.

All I got to say.

My parents called me tonight. First time I've talked to them in almost 6 months. Still not sure how I feel about it. They're just not a part of my life, I have nothing in common with them anymore. I didnt have anything to say to them so the conversation was short. The conversation left me feeling... for lack of a better term empty. I guess I wish I ( Read more... )

growing up I never gave much thought to what I was going to do with my life. I guess I never really thought I would make it there. I've never really been able to get back on my feet since I tried to kill myself. I've just been kinda letting things happen to me. Not really living just trying to get through it all. I've been thinking alot about how ( Read more... )

Ya know, even though its not really a financialy viable option, backpacking to California does have a definate upside to it. Fuck snow.

Lied to a lot of people the other day. Still not sure how I feel about that.

Got woken up for Shane the other day at 5:30. That was pretty cool.

Therapist says I should be more in the moment. We'll see.

Gummi bears and monster in the drawing studio again last night. Not as productive as I would have hoped. Oh well.

Its a bit odd to hear about all the crazy damage from the storm since here in Keene we didnt even lose power. Guess I should feel luck or something.