For 5 years I had the same hope, the same dream, the same prayers only to end up with less than what I started with.
I have lost whatever faith I had.
I am nothing, I never was anything. I can be forgotten about in minutes.
I hate everything about this and I dont know what Im supposed to do now.

the worst part about getting 2 hours of sleep is the fact that you know that youve ruined the next day because youre so tired you wont remember anything and you have to spend the rest of the day in bed, not getting anything accomplished. Blah.

not being able to sleep really sucks. guuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhh im tired. it started with ok 6 hours of sleep, then it turned into 5 then 4, and now im at 3 man do i wish i could fall asleep right now. Nothing seems right for the past few days, i donno. Blah too im tired to type.

well i went and saw achorman tonight with carrie and god damn that movie was hilarious. The bourne supremecy comes out this friday and I want to go see that too since the first one was pretty kick ass, i really like spy movies. Nothing else has been happening lately just been getting more junk for my car that Nate is going to have to help me put ( Read more... )

Its been a long time since my last update so here goes. Well first off I dropped my calc2 class, after my combined total score for my first two tests didnt break 50 i dont think it was working out too good. The class was just too much work in a little ammount of time, i was doing 4 hours of homework a night and then having a test every week ( Read more... )

well its the first day of summer school and suprize im not at fucking class because i locked my keys in my car and my spare is fucking not where i put it for some reason. What makes matters even more is that out of the 4 of people i know here i called to get a ride to class i got 2 no's, someone just hung up on me, and a "i cant". This is great, ( Read more... )

ever have one of these;

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Well here I am again, updating away. Not much has happened though in the time of my last update so I'll just go through what’s been happening lately starting off with me working. Since Monday I’ve been working the night shift at the kreamer, let me be the first to tell you that this FUCKING BLOWS. Man I hate being up all night making doughnuts ( Read more... )

So yeah school is all done and im back in o-town (O' Fallon for those not in the know) and im already bored off my ass. I think i ended up with a 3.07 or something really close to that which is ok with me but i really wanted higher, stupid calculus. Atleast school is done for now atleast untill summer school starts up. more calculus, oh joy ( Read more... )

AHHH im fucking pissed. Nothing fucking makes sense anymore ahh this is fucking stupid.