yaaay ( Read more... )

tonight found me being pulled by my mind through various bookstores in various cities in search of ( Read more... )

number of people who have hopped the fence to the backyard and tapped on my window: 3

three!!!

went with paul to jazz and java at cal state fullerton tonight which is the night when the jazz combos play... tyler plays in the fullerton art ensemble... 3 other groups played... there was sum sick drumming and a nice trumpet solo and this girl who played sum beatuioful piano ( Read more... )

how did i become such a fucking asshole?
i really fucking hate myself right now and i want to die
so instead of killing myself i am going to try to get a job and go to therapist and just get through the fucking da6y

nl;anio;zdvnio ;sdvn [io'anv 'dnio 'hio ' m, kl

last night i watched tv

because i am not a badass

i dont know what the fuck is going on... i think i am insane... tonight i danced on top of a table screaming... it made me feel better...

i walked on the beach... i thought about the way i am... i feel different today... i feel like i am back in touch with the real world again... not floating out in my own world... i may know about all kinds of "out there" stuff like metaphysics and science and kaballah and buddhism etc etc etc... but i dont even apply any of this to myself... i ( Read more... )

i need to write more... i need to get it all out... ok kevin... lets take a look at how you feel... i have completely different perspective of myself now... like... what the fuck happened to me??? i used to be a good person... then sumwhere this year i just started to fall apart... this all happened after my grandmother died... and after kristen ( Read more... )

hey kevin...
what???
hey kevin...
what???
hey kevin...
what???
just checking for assholes!!! nahahahahahaha!!!

except this time... hes right...