"HI....umm...I can't do this anymore ( Read more... )

ive been writing in this thing regularly lately, so that's not very good. i just can't keep all this shit inside anymore, so instead of writing it down, i type because im a faster typer ( Read more... )

and again i just got dicked. so im done. im not even going to let myself try again. i can't handle this...especially not from one of my best friends, but at the same time would someone so close dick me over? i guess so ( Read more... )

so everything seems to fluctuate right now. should i not be mad since nothing did end up happening? seeing he told me he wanted to marry me in four years, and have little baseball players? am i being played myself? would one of your best friends play you? would you play one of your best friends? see i didn't think so either. maybe that's why i am ( Read more... )

i thought everything was going soo good. and looks like it was too good. too good to be true in fact. we were hanging out more often, talking more about things. reminds me of vernon and i. it was like we knew each other inside and out. hell he even broke down in front of me. and now to find out it was all a lie? he tried to get with one of my best ( Read more... )

things are back to where they started. im not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. im happier than i was this weekend, but at the same time, im digging myself deeper and deeper once again. so here's the whole story...this is for jill and andrea basically lol. im continuing from where i left of with steffen where we hang out everyday, and i ( Read more... )

SHoW Biz NIZ 04: you never called me to day missy

...the point is that im trying to get over you. please stop making it so hard for me. I hate this. I wanna come home.

and if i didnt have all this stuff keeping me busy, i think i'd honestly be 6 feet under.

RoCkToWn50: ur amazing u know that
RoCkToWn50: i hope
RoCkToWn50: totally amazing
RoCkToWn50: to be totally honest
Ke Ww SeY14 33: wow

so it definately hit me this weekend although i was in denial all weekend, so i guess you could say it hit me today. Im officially depressed again. i dont want to admit it, i really don't, and i've been hiding it well. really well. almost to the point where i fool myself. I mean it's more of bipolor though, like one minute im fine, and the next im ( Read more... )

i am falling....shawna gave me good advice...take things slow, i mean im trying to, we dont really fool around, more of cuddling and usually we hang out at night and i usually just spend the night there is all, to sleep, although today he came over for lunch with rob haha we made scooby doo mac and cheese. it was fun. tonight im dog sitting so i ( Read more... )