things are possibly looking up....and tonight is tequila night. haha

i am writing this for myself, because the only person i talked about this with is my roomate...i had a breakdown today, but i'll start at the begining...which goes back to like winter...i got really close with a friend from school. he and i hung out everyday. he knew when i was trying to hide the fact that i was upset. it was a comfort i loved ( Read more... )

so maybe all the signs really did mean something. after almost a damn year of talking to you, and over a year from seeing you...i wanted to give up so bad, but due to the fact you were my best friend for over three years and my boyfriend for a few months i can't give up. i knew that somewhere in there you truly did want to talk to me and that it ( Read more... )

this weekend may have been one of the best weekends in a long time. i finally hung out with hoovie and mandi. and for a whole weekend at a time. friday we got to ludington, did a power hour, then went to bed, woke up saturday at 9am and started drinking at 9:30...ended at 2am. longest drinking day ever. consumed 14 beers, 1 shot of jim beam, one ( Read more... )

lyrics always know how to describe me when i dont know how to myself ( Read more... )

at least the both of us realize that distance took its toll on going away to school this past year. and i really hate saying this right now, but although there will always be a fab four...its no longer there. if that makes sense....and im not enjoying this summer at all. its time to go. and to tell you the truth...i dont know when ill be coming ( Read more... )

It's just too beautiful to quit....a lot of dumb shit has been happening this summer, but im not going to complain to this thing because even though it has sucked, there has been few good moments. it's just time to get out of here. and i never thought i owuld say this but im so damn excited to get the hell out of here and move out in three weeks. ( Read more... )

as i find myself trying to change, i realize im just digging myself deeper in this hole ( Read more... )

so this entry is for my own venting since i feel i really don't want to complain to ppl and those i tend to dont want to hear it really and only change the subject to talk about their own problems and issues. ill start with the fact that my body feels like it's shutting down. i have had three surgeries since the end of april..so two months. besides ( Read more... )

it's starting to hit me hard. really hard. i mean i know i want to come home...i really do. i love my family, and everything i left behind when i went away to school...but in a sense..this is my home. my new family. the people i see everyday of my life. i mean look...i've shared a room with claire this whole year, we've seen each other at our best ( Read more... )