I believe I'm at a major crossroad. I am content and happy with Tim... In the words of John Lennon I'm just trying to "Let it Be." However, a lot of the GOOD memories from my past with Andrew have snuck in (this is rare for me to think of the good.) This is rare because... well, we had a lot of bad memories. Painful memories. I guess I just ( Read more... )

Andrew called me today.

I haven't stopped thinking about it. Him.

Part of me will always Love him.

Part of me will never forget.

Part of me will always remember the Hell we went through... together and against one another.

Part of me is glad he called.

Part of me wishes he'd leave me a lone...

...forever.

-Adam-

I am EXHAUSTED. This quarter is SO active! Between dancing for hours every day, rehearsal, movement class, working out, walking everywhere on campus, and random tennis and baseball with Jese, my body is sort of aching. I Love it though... wouldn't want it any other way ( Read more... )

I AM EXHAUSTED. Tim didn't leave last night until about 3am... and I wouldn't have wanted it any other way : ) God bless his little heart for chilaxin with me while I took care of what seemed like a million little RA things since I was on call. I took him on a tour of Lincoln too to see what it was like and get the feel for "dorm life ( Read more... )

I AM EXHAUSTED. Tim didn't leave last night until about 3am... and I wouldn't have wanted it any other way : ) God bless his little heart for chilaxin with me while I took care of what seemed like a million little RA things since I was on call. I took him on a tour of Lincoln too to see what it was like and get the feel for "dorm life ( Read more... )

So I didn't wake up until about 2:45...PM!!!! MY GOD!!! My sleeping habits are WAY out of wack! I have a class at 8:30 in the morning on Monday... this pattern has GOT to end!!! So, I woke up and instantly went to work on my door decs. They're pretty cute I suppose. Colorful music notes with my residents' names on each one, all on top of a ( Read more... )

OK... I did little of nothing today. Minus picking my lil bro up fromt the gym and hitting the gym with him. I have to admit, I enjoyed spending time with the little guy... though he's not so little anymore lol. He's 17 and could put up a good fight these days...bulkin' up he is!! haha ( Read more... )

So today... was a MESS. I have been SO sick all day. I managed to feel good enough to get dinner with Tim ( a MAJOR positive! )but I wasn't feeling like my COMPLETE self. I talked a lot. That means i'm really comfortable wtih him, but I also feel like... well, I talked a lot lol. Anyway, he's rediculously gorgeous (those eyes... those ( Read more... )

My mom asked me last night if being gay was decided by a hormonal imbalance, would I take a pill or some other treatment to correct that... essentially becoming straight. I was offended right off the bat and said absolutely not, and that I don't know many other homosexuals that would. You know, because it's not MY problem... it's society's. I'm ( Read more... )

Indeed I have a dream... or rather had a dream. Last night in fact. I think for the 9 and a half hours that I was sleeping last night I dreamt about Andrew for 9 of them. I woke up and literally said outloud to myself "FUCK THAT." So I rolled over, and was like Thank God that dream is done... only to continue the dream where I left off. I ( Read more... )