i dont know but i feel like my shit is about to spiral out of control really quick i dont know why or when but i feel as though im going to do a lot of things that i should regret but i wont. i just feel like getting fucked up and not having to deal with anything at all maybe ill just forget everyone and just skate and work myself into my own ( Read more... )

i really wish i didnt have to ask the one person i love more then anything if i could be close to them or hold them or even just give them a simple little kiss i wish they were still in love with me. but now i can see that this is farther from happening then ever and i fear that it shall never be even close to the same and there cant possibly be ( Read more... )

i feel very very akward what the hell is going on?

holy shit i just remembered that i had a really weird dream last night right before i posted this

so i almost died the other night ... what the fuck i could have been done for my days i could have never got to skate again and never seen my friends good bye or anything isnt that weird i dont even know but i am going to go eat some sgettis then im going to sit in my room or something and draw good bye

these shoes are more then i thought they would be. they might be godly shoes i think ( Read more... )

june 21st is the first day of summer and more importantly international skateboarding day and this year i refuse to have a sprained ankle for it! and then a few shoooooort days after there will be a little get together at mickey stevens for some skateboarding to take place in a competion sponsored by underground on the 24th so i shall be very busy ( Read more... )

so i woke up this morning and i didnt have to go to work at the crack of dawn which was nice so i laid around then i went outside and cleaned my car and got all the shit out and checked everything and vacumed it and made it nicer and now im going to make mozzeralla sticks for some lunching then im going to go to the skatepark and ride my skateboard ( Read more... )

everything forever sucks the one thing i need and want is so far away and it just kind of makes me feel a little dead inside it really sucks and i dont know what to do i just feel so empty without you...

i hate feeling like this i hate feeling empty it makes me be a whole different person and it kind of bothers me a little i just wish things could be better again. this sucks!

hahaha alright eric koston left es today and its ok because there is actually a new accel and as we all know i love shoes and especially accels and justin eldrige shoes i like it but i think es is going to die soon it sucks i guess but whatever this sucks i have to work at like 7 in the morning till like 11 tomorrow and its like 3 in the morning so ( Read more... )