Breaking up with someone you've been with for 1 year and 5 months is more painful than anything I've experienced in my life. It's as if my heart was ripped out of my chest, run through a meat grinder, then placed back in my chest cavity without being sewn back in, and expected to keep pumping everything normally. Pain radiates like heat, and it ( Read more... )

I think too much when I'm alone. I should have gone to bed at 7 P.M. instead of pushing myself just a little farther and letting my second wind kick in. Now, I'm sitting here typing out my thoughts before I go back to crocheting and listening to Jim Dale narrate Harry Potter 6. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm bored out of my mind, and my ( Read more... )

Well, I'm screwed for my history exam in 6 hours. I took one look at my study guide and sighed deeply. My papers are going to be crap, but I expected that. I did actually put effort into the ENG 101 paper. Considering he never thinks I write well enough for an A, I just put all of my feelings on the subject of gay civil rights into my 6 page paper ( Read more... )

It's almost 4:30 A.M. on a Friday morning. I'm lounging in the hammock in my girlfriend's dorm, right next to my favorite spot on her beloved futon. I'm pretty sure my ass is permanently imprinted on that thing ( Read more... )

I'm having a stressful time right now. I'm trying desperately to find a job so I can keep my apartment, but businesses aren't hiring until after Thanksgiving, and I'm pretty sure they're just hiring for holidays, then booting all the new people out the door. That's not very helpful to me, considering I have rent and utilities due every month until ( Read more... )

In one of my English courses, we were discussing a book called "so Long a Letter" by Mariama Ba. Basically, it's about a woman in Senegal whose husband of 30 years takes on a co-wife and leaves her in the dust. Then he dies, and she is forced to cope with her new position in life, and her co-wife ( Read more... )

A year ago, on 9/1/08, I walked up behind Lauren and gave her a hug as she sat in her computer chair, checking Facebook ( Read more... )

It's been a busy couple days. I've been going back and forth from doctor to doctor, making sure I've got everything I need and that I'm healthy ( Read more... )

This morning, I jolted awake after having my first nightmare in about 4 years. My heart was beating fast and my body was completely rigid ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted. Dad and Mom are out watching the final Bellagio Fountain shows, which are fantastic by the way. I'm just trying to survive this vacation. Dad's very GO GO GO!!!!!, and the rest of us are being dragged behind him. Lance and I are taking video of everything we can so we can put it all together in a family vacation video at the end. I' ( Read more... )