Thanks

[khaleesian]

....guys for the emails, PMs, phone calls and such. I can't really say anything that someone else hasn't said better. I feel like I lost the friend who introduced me to all of y'all. It's going to take me a while to process it.

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[slavelabour]

I thought of you, khal. I'm usually better about celebrity deaths, but this one gutted me, and I wish I knew why.

You know, I'm sat here typing this and looking at the animated D/B icon I made for you a lifetime ago, and I have the feeling this is going to hurt for a long time. {hugs}

[khaleesian]

{hugs back} I know, I think it's because he was such a genuinely good guy, not controversial or polarizing the way Vin sometimes is. I dunno. I'm glad I can share with y'all. And taking a look at some of my other icons makes me realize that now at least 3 of them are wildly inappropriate. :(

[stageira]

To be quite honest here you were almost my only thought in this. I kept looking for your post and it was almost by luck that I didn't send you a PM already.

I'm just...

I still remember your excitement the first time I met you all those years ago and you had this awesome thing to pimp to us. How passionate you were and how much you loved those guys. You made me love them for the movies and then I adored them for being amazing guys and now I feel like I lost a piece of myself.

Oh Lee.

*huge hugs*

(now am crying again, oh bother)

[khaleesian]

It kind of amazes me that you remember that...I didn't feel like a very good cheerleader at the time. What you come to realize about passion is how much it hurts.

[sheeris_jemima]

*hugs*
I've never known myself to react strongly to any kind of 'celebrity news', good or bad, but I've been... I don't want to say distraught because checking the dictionary it seems like too strong a word, but on the other hand seems to fit, and nobody I know/outside your post seems to understand, but seeing so many of us around here feeling the same helps for some reason.

I had just woken up when I read the news on twitter, and since then I keep stopping and thinking it must have been a bad dream - and then I look down at the finger I almost managed to cut off in all my confused/distracted/sad glory that morning and get sad all over again.

[khaleesian]

Yeah, that's a good word. And I think of myself as a truly cynical person, but this event has stripped me down to a pretty vulnerable place too.

[elfinessy]

I'm lucky to have more understanding friends than I honestly thought I had. Thought of you on Sunday.
I have no idea how or where to start to deal with this.

[khaleesian]

I never expected life to imitate art like this, kind of numb right now.

[elfinessy]

I know. I'm feeling slightly detached from everything. I have no idea how to handle people celebrating Christmas
I've never felt less like celebrating

[witchy78]

We don't really know each other, we've only interacted lately when you posted your review of the last installment. But I really appreciate your wonderful work in this fandom and was just about sending you a private message to share with you this tragic event. I guess I'm not the only one checking your livejournal waiting for news from you ;o) I don't know how this event will affect you in this fandom, but just so you know that as far as I'm concerned, I find shelter in your writings right now. I'm seeking the Dom!comforts scenes more than ever these days. So in a way, thanks for your work so far, that helps me cope with all this.

[khaleesian]

Thank you....I just wish I could write a fix-it that would genuinely, y'know, FIX IT. So sad.

[witchy78]

That's totally my wish too... You know Dom saving the day :o(