Today was bad. But there was a bright spot for a moment. I was sitting on my bed watchin t.v. about to wash some clothes when the phone rang. So I went into the living room to see who it was. But it didn't show up. At first I wasn't gonna answer it but somethin told me to. Much to my surprise it was my bestfriend! I'd been waitin so long for him to ( Read more... )

A wedge was put between us, which turned into a brick. More and more bricks begin to appear. One on top of the other. Less and less of you I see, Until I can't see u anymore!! I scream for u, Please help me get rid of this wall, I don't wanna be without you. Three more walls appear I'm boxed in. I begin to cry. I look up and the rain falls. The ( Read more... )

Wow, So much has happened in the past year including up to this date. I don't really know what to make of it all. I've learned a lot of shit and been through a lot of shit. Some of it wasn't needed. I did somethings that I'm not proud of but I don't regret any of it. Life is too short for regrets.I've changed and grown as a person but  Right now I ( Read more... )

Damn, I missin you. Missin my bestfriend. Wanting to talk to you, let you know what's been goin on. See what's been goin on wit ya. But shit the phone don't ring no more. It's like we feel apart over night. Maybe it was a long time comin. I want you to know I want my friend back. I wanna talk like we used to!! You still my number one nigga...lol.. ( Read more... )

See I thought about all the nasty things I could say, all the things that should be said but then I realized I'm a fuckin grown ass women on some other stuff now. I ain't got no time for the name calling and so forth. Maybe I am a bitch, Maybe I am insecure, Maybe I am big headed, Maybe I am coniving, Maybe even triflin but its all irrelevant to me ( Read more... )

These early hours of the morning bring clarity or at least that's what I'm callin it. I was thinkin what happened to the guys I let get away, Ya know....The ones that only wanted to be with me and were ready for somethin real, the ones that treated me right but I did them wrong, the ones I thought weren't cute enough, even the ones I thought came ( Read more... )

See I thought about it and I wonder if I'm asking for to much. I want somebody that will appreciate me and all the things I would do for them. You know somebody that would always be by my side, no matter what was goin on.  A guy that would be real with me, never lie to me. I wanna be the only one in his life or should I say the only girl, that ain' ( Read more... )

I have to admit I ain't felt this way in along time. Longing to be held, to be touched, feel soft kisses all over me. Holding someone, Holdin them close to me all night.  Lookin in their eyes knowin they want to just as much as I do. Wispering in his ear, Layin my head on his chest, Feelin his heart beat just as fast as mine. Knowing that right ( Read more... )

     Have you ever felt like you weren't pretty?? Wondered why people thought you were?? Wondered if they saw the same thing you do when you look in the mirror?? Some even think I'm conceited cause I say so but the truth is its all an act. No matter how many people say I am and no matter who tells me, I never see it. When I was with Will I never ( Read more... )

Lately I've been talkin to a lot of guys. Partly to get over the last guy I was with and just to find someone to be happy with, ya know. But I'm finding that its not as easy as it sounds. Cause most of them only wanna talk about sex, have sex, or are just into playin games. Its time out for me messin with guys, niggas or otherwise that lie and play ( Read more... )