I figured since I haven't been here in such a long time, I should take the opportunity to make the first post a tribute to how I have changed. Though, the truth is, I really haven't changed much at all. The only differences I have are physical and even those aren't that noticeable. But I have posted an updated picture anyway because I do hope to ( Read more... )

Im a horrible procrastinator ( Read more... )

I have already had the delima of having to choose and I actually have the good fortune that my husband is really my best friend.  My other best friend, Ashenlilies, stuck by me as well, not making me choose.  We all have to make compromises and put forth some effort to keep things at least resembling what they used to be since things change so ( Read more... )

Yes, I know, I'm horrible.  I haven't been here in forever.  To be honest, I lost my internet and totally forgot my username and password so getting back on here just slipped my mind.  To catch you up until im not too tired to write a real post, I'm just going to touch on the big points.

I am 19 years old now; 20 in November.

I now have an eighth ( Read more... )

So I've met this really great guy...

Problem 1:  I can't have him.

I think I love him, I may not be in love with him, but I think I do love him.  I hope it turns out to be one of those brotherly kinds of love; it be better for the both of us.  I hate that the greatest guys, the ones you think would be the perfect one for you--at least right now--are ( Read more... )

Yep, the parentals are finally getting a divorce. HELL FUCKING YEAH!

That's all I can say about that.  They should've a long fucking time ago.  But, well, better late than never. hah...haha....hahahahahahaha...man...i feel fucking great!

And I'm not even being sarcastic... O.<

--khali--

Fuck you.

I don't deserve that bullshit.

Yeah, we fooled around.  That does not make me a whore.

Been there, done that.  You think I don't know how to use myself to get what I want?  Inexperienced?  Like hell.  I've had to do it since I was nine.  I'm tired of it.  I am not going to let some 17 year old punk-ass motherfucker use me just because he ( Read more... )

I think I want to make a list.  So I shall.

1.  I'm friends with a guy that I want to be more than friends with, though I'm not sure if he feels the same way.  And I don't think he's too sure either.  Your normal teenage drama.

2.  I have an incredibly sexy friend that I don't necessarily want to be more with, just do more with.  Pure friendship, but ( Read more... )

Emrya’s eyes shot open at the sound of faint foot falls echoing against the high walls of the barracks.  She clutched the thin, standard gray-wool blanket closer around her body, covering most of her head and face, fighting the urge to shut her eyes in fear.

It’s not one of them.

It’s not one of them.

They wouldn’t be running.

They wouldn’t be… ( Read more... )

All is numb.
This guilt's too much.
I know I've done wrong,
but it had to be.

I'm my own worst enemy,
but it won't overcome me.
I'm resolute,
cold, numb.

Want to control me?
I'm more than you can handle.
Think you can live my life better than me?
Go ahead.

Don't judge me too quick.
Try to understand me.
Listen to what I say.
Just listen to me.

I've done what I've ( Read more... )