senior year has never felt so highschool ( Read more... )

I wish once in a while i could make a positive post with good news or just something exciting to say.
but for now its still these 2 am post about the things that hurt.

this morning i attempted to (and for the most part did) have a deep talk  with jack paddison about family life and relationships. it of course was interupted by my brother who came in ( Read more... )

Ive been trying to make this post for a long time.
and today is the first day ive been able to just breathe.
im torn between writing about my opinions on the events of swuusi, my personal ups and downs, or the happenings between my self and others because in all seriousness i could write a novel on each.

Highlights
saturday night TGL activites. biv ( Read more... )

Im due for a miracle.

i need so many things out of this life and this world and it is to much to ask and to much to list.
i wish i could be the kindof person to know how to just sit up here and talk about everything. 
and just know how. but i really dont.

my birthdays in a week. and i know that im not going to get anything i want.

2 piercings..a pretty ( Read more... )

i think life would be signifigantly easier if guys and girls could truly always stay JUST friends ( Read more... )

when the hell did i become doctor phil ( Read more... )

its really upsetting when you have your heart set on being sad about something, and then someone gives you a really good reason not to.,all you want to do is go home,  angst it out, wollow in self pity, and hurt and then someone goes and just talks to you and the you stop having the urge to do all of that.

new bestie. his name is mitchell and we ( Read more... )

Of all the questions at the powershuffles , the only question that made me cry was "are you a good friend". that question killed me, i truly utterly broke down with the realization of the fact that i am a horrible, terrible friend.
im selfcentered, neglegent, and easily annoyed. i get hurt to easy and often  give up and  get out to prevent myself ( Read more... )

im going back to school tomorrow.
i missed 7 days.
i was going to transfer to a private school
but i dont want to give up.
im going to have the biggest makeup workload ever.
its going to be really really hard. but i want to try

you cant give up on life, because life will never give up on you.

just think of this and me as just a few of the many things
to lie around, to clutter up your shelves
and I wish you weren't worth the wait
cause there are some things that I'd like to say to you

[now I could make this obvious and you, you could deny me
all in one breath you could shrug me off your shoulders]

hey lush, have fun it's the weekend
(no I don' ( Read more... )