The amazing life of Keenan Shawl has taken an unsuspected turn! She is moving to California in the summer of 2005 ( Read more... )

I thought the relationship between Michael and I was over as of Monday night but I think that I am wrong. I really do love him but it is so difficult to deal with him sometimes. I just want to be seen as an equal. The whole Footy Nationals weekend was non-existant and pissed me off royaly. Michael pissed me off royaly. I don't ask for much you ( Read more... )

Ok so Greg, the shameless flirt, from Houston's is annoying as hell. I hung out with him on Saturday night and wanted to shoot myself. Anyway, nothing will be going on between us and as far as Saturday goes, it was completely innocent ( Read more... )

Work was very enjoyable today because it was my last day of training! Yeay! I served the GM and he passed me on to the floor. Thank god because I was getting tired of studying menu items. Tomorrow will the be last fucking test and it's about damn time! So yeah, people at work are very cool and I like it. I have a set work sched. and at the ( Read more... )

I had sex with Tony last night. I almost wish that I didn't because last night for the first time he didn't really do it for me. What am I suppose to do? Sometimes I just can't help myself. I feel slightly bad about it because you know I am dating Michael. But you know that story.............

Today is Ivy and Peter's 2 yr anniversary. I'm sad and glad at the same time. I'm sad because I have never had the joy of even a 1 yr. ann. and I am glad because they have reached that point. My eyes are green just a little and that doesn't happen often ( Read more... )

I had the hardest time trying to fall asleep last night. I kept tossing and turning only to find myself in yet another uncomfortable position. I have been ill for at least the past week it seems like and by now I'm getting quite tired of it. I have these dry chains of coughing that are ridiculous ( Read more... )

Well here you have it. At one point you think that it is all figured out when all the sudden, life throws you a curve ball. All I can ask myself is what the fuck? I'm hurting inside once again and don't really know what to do about it. Is it possible to love two loves? Not totally - for sure. True love deserves undivided attention. I want so ( Read more... )

Last night Michael called me with the hope that I would come out with him for dinner. Of course since I love him and have absolutly nothing to do, I said YES. Michael always asks me where we should eat and I never really have a good answer. I wish he would tell me what he wanted to eat whether it be Mexican, Italian, Sushi, or whatever, but he ( Read more... )