Well I still miss Fievel a ton and think about him all the time. Allen and I made his grave real pretty with a little white fence and rocks and a cross. Sometimes I entertain the thought of getting a new chihuahua puppy but when the sun goes down and I am alone in my bed, the pain intensifies and I refuse to ever get a new one for fear of going ( Read more... )

ugh. i miss him!

My heart is broken. I can't even begin to describe how empty and lonely I feel. On Friday Feb 25 I lost my precious Fievel ( Read more... )

I learned how to edit!! So awesome... I am so proud of myself. (it took 12 hours, but whatever) I have 2 videos to show for it and they are pretty dang good. Life is great right now. I'm getting along with my family, my boyfriend, my best friend. I am so in love and I couldn't be happier with Allen right now. He's been showing up at Adrenaline to ( Read more... )

Attention all high school...

80's NIGHT at my house tonight!!!!!

• all ages
• $3 cover
• Food, movies, music (all 80's!)
• best 80's costume wins!

I feel famous! Weird, huh? It is so much fun to dress like you're someone, believe you're someone and go out and spend money like you're someone. Did that yesterday after paying my agent a visit who thoroughly inflated my ego and convinced me I was fabulous! It was invigorating! Unfortunately reality came calling today when my bank account began to ( Read more... )

Could be worse ( Read more... )

How is it possible to love someone so much and not be the slightest bit compatible???????????????????????

So much crap lately. I'm dealing with a lot and its making me disfunctional. I'm raw and I don't even know what it would take to make me happy. I want to be at peace so bad. Ever since last week I've realized that I need to face my past, sort through it, and at last resolve it. On saturday night I went to Tina Schrimsher's birthday party. Her son's ( Read more... )

So yesterday was an awful day. Well, it was just a day that left me very raw on the inside and somewhat bitter on the outside. Old hurts from my past were revisited and wounds were opened up that I always fool myself in thinking have healed. Gossip. Selfish people. Feelings of betrayal. Damaged. The last time I really opened myself up to people was ( Read more... )