Christmas always makes me incredibly depressed. It's not the weather actually. It's the issues of money, friendship, and loneliness that weigh me down. In this journal, I've written about many things. But mainly how I feel rejected by people that I've called friends. It's mainly one group of them who are my age, but who I thought mattered to me ( Read more... )

Had a lesson at Towson with Gran Wilson, he said after out lesson that he'd be more than happy to take me as his student. Turns out, I don't suck vocally after all. It's the time of dreams and wishes, with the cold weather bringing everyone indoors. I had these three dreams last night, I wonder what they mean. My dreams tend to be inbetween the ( Read more... )

Oh how I've abandoned thee my love. So much has happened in the past 4 months. There are times when it feels as though 10 years have passed. I've burned through a teacher, rode on a plane 6 hours, and realized that internet dating just doesn't work out. No how matter how hard I try, James Taylor seems to be erasable from my consciousness. Perhaps ( Read more... )

Life has been interesting these past months. I look back on my journal here, and wonder if I'm the same person. Who writes bad poetry and whines and bitches about life excessively. OH well, now I'm enjoying a bout of good luck. Finally. BASOTI accepted me, and now I can't stop talking ( Read more... )

Bel Canto - A Hip Hop Opera

http://youtube.com/watch?v=ICqVCQubQeE&search=Donizetti

It's pretty interesting. I can detect which arias she uses in the improv though...

Went to the strokes last night, met up with some kids from my past and ARGS kids. I saw him, he was extremely attractive with a shortsleeve pop button shirt on. After the show he asked me if I wanted to come back to his place. Some other people were with us. We got there, only he and i, and one of our other friends was there. She left eventually. ( Read more... )

i hate this feeling, but i wonder if i actually like it. the torture of wanting something. i lay in bed and think about him. i go to school and see him, i pay him too much attention in class. you'd figure that after 3 years it'd dissapate. but i've realized that growing up, and the apparent change that comes with it is often just a myth. we talked ( Read more... )

man lately has been a time ( Read more... )

Guessing game ( Read more... )

i've had the best intention of writing a post. lately, live has been the rush toward graduation. it's coming alright, and i've yet to pull things together. enough of that. so i'm 19 now. my birthday was shitty. i won't lie. practically none of my friends called me, especially a specific one who i was supposed to hang out with the weekend before, ( Read more... )