i am planning to move to new mexico next year in april/may.

just so you know.

i am going to california.
if i have to sell everything i own to afford it, i am going.

omg. my house is fucking hottt....the air is broken and i woke up sweating. . . not happy...

dad called me this morning asking me and derek to dinner. .. so once he gets out of work derek and i are driving to forever away to see dad and have fun.

i want my tattoo... but i think i need more money first

im out its too hot here

love is for dorks.

thankfully, thats just what i am.

i have found you, and you me
theres no telling how happy well be
one things for sure, you know its true
you love me and i love you
one more night spent in your arms
lets me fall for all your charms
one last kiss under the nights sky
slowly each day in you arms i die.

yup. happy. me. you. sudden. fear. comfort. love.

wow. not much has really happened yet everything is changing. things are happening all around me everyday, yet i am still stuck where i was. . . except for one thing. . . i am not alone.

i have made new friends. it has been wonderful.
tomorrow night i am having a scary movie night at my house. bring beer and scary movies if you wanna come, and let me know youre coming and ill give you directions.

yeah.

my new friends are wonderful. im letting go of broken hearts and finding it much easier to move on.

SO...moms home, i missed her, but at the same time i didnt. i love her to pieces, but no matter what i do i am only a disappointment to her and it gets hard to deal with.
today she not only told me im fat, but that i am a loser.

so yeah, those of you wondering why i have low self esteem....makes sense huh?

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