ignorance is bliss...

[kij66]

It's been a rough couple of days; I've been deprssed and having semi-uncontrollable crying jags. It's been very stressful on R

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[vorona]

I remember the permanent vertigo. That was BAD... I didn't think that would go away. But it has. Bit by bit a lot of what I thought was permanent loss has come back. The dry eyes from Femara are still bad, though

vertigo

[kij66]

Glad to hear I might get some relief from the vertigo; by the end of the day I just feel like my head is spinning all the time.

I think cancer patients make the healthy folks so uncomfortable because we force them to look at their OWN mortality; "if Ivy/Karen/whomever could die, that means *I* could die. AAAAAACCCCKKKKK, I don't wanna DIE!!!!" :::mass stampede of scared friends:::

Totally sucks. Thank god for LJ, and meeting others who understand where we're coming from!

Re: where you're coming from

[loosehorse]

I haven't experienced personally what you are experiencing, but I do know where you're coming from. I understand your moods and worries and fears and depressions just as well as I enjoy your laughter and your sense of fun and your smile and your joy. I can face my own mortality, and won't run and stampede. I am here for you.

Re: where you're coming from

[kij66]

Thanks, C; I needed that :-) You & Jill listening to me vent over dinner the other night was a big help, and I love you for it (as well as YOUR sense of humor & understanding!) Not to mention that any support group I join is not likely to have the esoteric aspect that I can share with you guys...

*smooch*

[opakele]

You are having a much rougher time than I had, but I can sympathize with this post. Cancer patients go to a place where only the very enlightened can follow. I did have people who supported me, but I also had people completely withdraw. Some of them, I could have predicted, but, it is something else knowing for certain.

Hang in there. I wish there is more I can do or say.

support group time

[kij66]

I never joined any support groups the first time I went through treatment, but I think that's what I need this time. I know there's a Wellness center about 20-30 minutes from home, so I'm gonna check them out online & see what they offer. I need to find betting coping mechanisms...

You do plenty by letting me know that I'm not alone in feeling this way; I was feeling kinda crazy the last couple of days :-(

[justgrey]

Ever and always sending vibes and hugs. You are so much stronger than I think I could ever be. A trooper, you are :)

*smooch*

[kij66]

thanks for the vibes, always welcome & needed!

Glad we had a chance to chat, it was good to catch up :-)

[talekyn]

Sorry I've been out of touch during all of this. Big Hugs ....

just started

[kij66]

This has only been going on the last couple of days, so you didn't miss much.

I'm sure your mom went through phases like this; do you know what she did to cope?

Re: just started

[talekyn]

I wish I could remember. She played things so close to the vest, so to speak, that I'm not sure she ever really told me. But I'll try to remember.

Things are a bit in turmoil today. If you haven't seen my post yet -- Dad died in his sleep. I got the call here in Tulsa at 815. I'm flying to Florida in the morning.

I can't really believe it yet. I have to go back downstairs and teach the rest of the afternoon, and someone is coming tonight to take over for tomorrow. I'm in total shock.

your dad

[kij66]

{{{{HUGS}}} We'll talk again tonight; sending you love & strength!!!

We want to pick you up...

[deemarie2003]

Oh, Karen...I'm so sorry you've had a rough couple of days. It will turn around...it will. We're here to listen...never forget that. (((((hugs)))))

Re: We want to pick you up...

[kij66]

Yah, I know these feelings are temporary, but man they can hit HARD! I'm gonna look for a local cancer support group; I need to find ways to cope with these feelings...